InsaneJournal

Current mood:

enthralled

Repercussions.
Man, I have been feeling my stress catch up to me these past couple days. I've been really exhausted lately. It might be me forcing myself to change my sleep schedule to something more convenient, but I become unbearably exhausted by the time 9 rolls around and that's odd. I wake up at 8 - 10 AM.. Soo. I don't get that.

Wednesday was the big ol' twist for Big Brother. I was so excited to see what it was. But RIGHT when the show began, I fell asleep. BAH! My sleep pattern really loves to spite me. I missed about 40 minutes of it. But my mom taped it so I watched that part afterward. We ordered from Fox's 'cause they're amazing. The twist was pretty much what I envisioned and that's a good thing. Earlier, I randomly stumbled upon this Ashlee Simpson and Pete Wentz on Newlyweds parody. It's so funny! I love Ashlee, and I'm pretty sure it's all in good fun. Not to be defamatory. But don't quote me on it. I SAID DON'T QUOTE ME, DAMMIT! Anyway, it's another thing I do to keep me from going back to the Dark Side™ as I have affectionately dubbed my negative moods.

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Damn the lack of embedding ability. I think the girl playing Ashlee looks so much like Jamie Lynn Spears.

I noticed that this change has caused me to have three new behaviors; mood swings, weird sleep patterns, and nonstop anger. You'll witness some of the latter in a later entry.

Next day was court. Luckily, I didn't have to go. But the hearing didn't go extraordinary. My mom and my uncle's neighbor, not the bad one, gave their testimony but were forced to leave before any of the opposing morons made theirs for whatever reason.. There's another hearing on the 19th.

I can't recall anything else of significance occuring on that day.. besides talking to Gaby, of course. :D Ooh, I'm finally back into watching As The World Turns. I missed that show. I hadn't been able to watch it for over a month. So much shit has happened so it's kinda hard to keep up. I also added this gorgeous guy on MySpace in hopes of being friends with him.

Friday's Degrassi was spectacular. Probably one of the best episodes I've seen in a while. One of the reasons I'm still watching. That and some syndicated shows I like such as Saved by the Bell and Sabrina are the only reasons I'll watch The N once South of Nowhere takes the dive. I passed out around 9. I am not exaggerating when I say that's the earliest I've gone to bed in probably five years at the very least.

Over the past few days I've been feeling myself come out of my depression/breakdown/crisis thing. But one thing I learned is that I guess I'm pretty fragile. Since the simplest things make me freak out as if I were back at the bottom again.

This morning I kinda hit another breaking point. Hot guy denied me. I just became so insecure and doubting of myself. I felt insecure because I so stupidly attach myself to people I literally have NO FUCKING CLUE ABOUT. I can see one picture of a good looking guy. And if they're a right type of "good looking," I'll fall in love. It's retarded, I now. I think it's because I love to adorn these mystery men with all these amazing personal qualities and I reimagine it so much that it's like I was fed this information from someone else or that I personally witnessed it. I felt like such a fraud, too. For reasons I don't feel like going into at the moment. I quickly came out of it, though. Thankfully. I'm better now. Thanks to my friends. I made some more friends, too. They're pretty awesome. :D 

Brenda called me from work today and we talked a lot since there weren't many customers there and I talked to some of her coworkers. Lmao. I love her.


Geffen released images of Ashlee Simpson's new album - "Bittersweet World" today. Here it is.



I have genuine mixed feelings on it. On one side, I really like it. It's really vibrant and cool looking. When you think "Bittersweet," you think a spectrum of things, so the rainbow colors work out. I really think they could have chosen a better font. It just looks a bit unfitting for the name. I do think it's kinda cool, though. I have seen two other potential covers. I think this cover would have worked better for it if she sticked with the name, "Color Outside the Lines." I'd say change the font and maybe do something with those inkblots in the corner and it'd be fine. Whether that means interspersing them or getting rid of them completely.

There's debate and reasonable doubt that this is the actual cover. Well, it's on Geffen's official website. Although they don't openly state "HEY Y'ALL, THIS IS THE OFFICIAL ALBUM ART!" but still. It could very well just be for promotion or maybe for international versions. Also, the font used on here is the same font used on her single "Little Miss Obsessive," although it looks more fitting. Maybe 'cause that's in red.

Here are the other rumored covers I found..





The black one looks the most fitting if you ask me. The fonts used look way more official. Especially the one used for the actual title. It looks almost personalized/created just for this album. Even the font used for her name does. The red one looks okay. But I think I'd rather use the "official" cover than that one. What baffles me is that these two covers, namely the black one, look way too professional to be fan made. Especially after seeing the "official" cover. Maybe these ones are international covers, or the "official" one is international? Or like I said before, it could be just promotional or just an error. Who knows? Guess we'll have to wait 'til April 22nd to find out. As long as the release date doesn't change AGAIN.

Of course that brings the haters out, saying Ashlee has no talent. Blah, blah, blah. Okay.

Dear Ashlee bashers,

The only thing more annoying than you THINK Ashlee is, is you constantly bitching about her. Get a hobby.

P.S. Crying about the same person all the time does not constitute as a hobby.

Love, Chris.