Woven Cognition

I have lived my entire life having people show disdain for me and who I really am, and people acting like I should be ashamed for who I am and thus believing that I should and subsequently hiding myself and becoming this fake person.

Now, I realize that I've been doing this for far too long and I am sick of hiding myself. I'm not ashamed of being myself and showing it. I'm not afraid to show my imperfections and my mistakes. I don't even consider most things that "normal" people would consider mistakes, really as mistakes.

And by "mistakes," I mean what the consensus defines as a mistake. Not like, knocking over a vase. I mean, maybe something that proves you're not some innocent prude who does crazy things sometimes. Really, who's to decide what's a mistake and what isn't?

I had a much better day today than yesterday. The refinance money FINALLY came to us in the mail today. It was funny, because my mom stepped out for a few minutes and asked me to watch for the UPS guy to come and sign the paper if she wasn't back in time. Well, she came back and they hadn't come yet. We saw the UPS truck go down the lane next to my house, and my dad opened the door and there it was in the doorway. I KNEW I heard a noise of some sort. Strange they didn't ask for a signature, or even ring the doorbell at least. But, whatever. I'm not complaining.

Well, last week Friday I was looking at AE.com at the clothes I wanted for Christmas part 2, and the prices were at an incredibly low price! So I told my mom about it ASAP, and I even found another shirt for a good deal. They were only available on the website, but my mom didn't have enough money in her account to pay for it. So, we had to wait 'til today to buy them. I was worried they'd no longer be available, but they were. And she ordered 'em. Wo0t!

My brother got an XBox 360 Elite. I'm jealous, but it's cool! Then we got food from Fox's. Oh my god, their food is orgasmic. I love ordering from there. I was stuffed. It's rare that that happens to me. I spent the day watching SOAP Net. Lmao. Then I watched American Idol. Entertaining as always. And some hot guys went through. Yay! I hope there's even more that'll stick around for a long time!

I had an enormous headache today, and I ended up taking a lot of aspirin for it. Finally, it's gone. Watched One Tree Hill also. I need to watch the 4th season. This season is so much different than the others, but it's good. By the way.. Omgwtfk-fed?

P.S. I miss Richard. ;_;