Woven Cognition

Right now I feel like updating but there really isn't any logical reason for updating. So I suppose I'll just talk about random things. Let's see.. current things that are annoying me right now is my uncanny lack of luck, my anxiety and OCD, Matthew Lush... I fucking HATE Matthew Lush. I don't believe in the notion that all gays should stick together. Because that's like saying all humans should stick together and obviously that's not going to happen in the near or far future. I think he's just in it for the fame and he has such ridiculous frames of thought, "If you eat meat, you're a homophobe." What the fuck? I like Chris Crocker more than Matthew Lush. I don't say that because I hate Chris Crocker. I say it because many people consider Lush the "gay god," while Crocker is seen as a crazy guy defending Britney's honor. I'd rather watch some guy in makeup make fun of his grandma than some camera whore piss and moan about how horrible McDonald's is.

Another thing that's annoying me is that whenever I go look at BB9 videos on YouTube, there's a barrage of people from England crying about how America stole the show from them and that's all America ever does. FYI, America's edition of BB aired before UK, and BB adopted it from Netherlands. I also get pissed when I see anti-American, pro-English groups on Facebook. The ones where English people list a gratuitous amount of reasons why England/English people are superior to America/American people. Then they have the gall to say Americans stereotype them when they make the aforementioned lists which are FULL of American stereotypes, that we're all fat and stupid. I'm not fat and I'm not stupid. So shove off. And don't tell me how to spell "favorite" or any other 'o' vs. 'ou' words. They're not "spelled wrong," we do it differently. Quit acting like we owe you EVERYTHING and that we need to do things exactly like you as if we're England part 2. I do believe America was discovered by the SPANISH!!!!!! Christopher Columbus. I am by no means a racist nor do I discriminate certain kinds of people. I only say English people in particular because I've encountered the most of that kind of trouble from them. I know there are awesome English people, some of them are my friends. I just can't stand egotistic, bigotted bastards.

I've decided to boycott The N for the most part. That channel just completely sold out. All they do is play reruns of crappy Nickelodeon shows or other syndicated shows. Notice how I said CRAPPY Nick shows? They could play some nice Nick classics. But nope. You'll be hard pressed to see them air their own original programming. They cancelled many of their original shows. Hell, even shows that were anticipated to air were already nixed. Yeah. Extremely retarded on their part. Unless they decide to rename the channel "The Rerun Network" or "Every Show On This Network is Already Being Broadcasted On Other Networks!" Ironically, I'm watching it right now. Only because there's nothing else on.

It pisses me off when people diss things I like to my face. I don't do it to you so don't do it to me. I hate when I forget something. It bugs me when people call at the most inconvenient times when they KNOW I'm already doing something. ..When people show disdain for my preference in anything, what I wear, what I do. Psh. Excuse me, when did you become so important that you think you're allowed to pass judgement on me? ..When people think marijuana is a drug, that it's bad and harmful. Kids, it's not. I'll end it here before it becomes a blatant hate entry.

Now for things I like. Honestly, it's harder to come up with a big list of all that. It's just easier to think of peeves in times like these. I love the feeling of rediscovering a prized gem from the past. A video games unplayed in years, a movie I haven't seen in forever, a song I forgot existed. Finding new pictures of my favorite famous people. When he updates his MySpace. Waking up the morning after a horrible night, knowing I got through it and that it's over. Those times I saw him in the hall. Feeling completely down and turned off to every possible thing to kill my boredom and take my mind off the depression, then suddenly the best idea comes to mind. Seeing the one I like in person, especially when it's unexpected. Falling in love with someone new. Anytime I get something new. Whenever I get something I've been wanting for a while that I can get excited about. When things work out against all odds. Confidence. Being able to breathe. Knowing everything will be alright. The feeling I get when I think of him.