Woven Cognition

I see it everywhere. People bitching about teen pregnancy. I could suffer from an onslaught of dirty looks from people for having these opinions I'm about to lay down on the table now. But, come on, dirty looks are what I live for.

I just find it a crock. The world is in chaos right now. Wanna know why? Because instead of people fighting for a better world, they're fighting for irrelevant things such as oil, stopping homosexuality and preventing teen pregnancy. We have better things to worry about than if some high schoolers twist their tools and squeeze out a kid.

What exactly is so stigmatic about having a kid when you're a teenager? I don't get it. I mean, I get why it IS a stigma, but WHY? Sure, the parents lose their childhood and some freedom. That's true. But, why exactly does everyone else give a damn about it? It's their life, let them worry about it.

There are people out their protesting teen pregnancy as if it'll work. I find that to be a real asshole thing to do. Seriously, mind your own business. Plus, how would you like it if people were indirectly protesting your birth? These people are of course conceited bitches and like to believe their birth is probably the most righteous thing that happened to this planet, otherwise where would they be getting their high horse from?

Instead of preventing teen pregnancy, how about doing something worthwhile and prevent shitty bitch pregnancy. There are so many non-teen parents out their that deserve to have their kids taken away and never seen again and then spayed and neutered so they never get the chance to torment anymore children's lives. Rumor has it that because you're a teenager, you're incredibly irresponsible and will therefore be a horrible parent to your child. If that's true, then what's up with these "grown" people having kids and doing an atrocious job at raising their kids, beating them, killing them, etc?

I don't see no groups for people against parents who disown their kids for dumb reasons like being gay, doing drugs and TEEN PREGNANCY. Yet, there are those against teen pregnancy. There's something seriously screwed up with this picture. It's like we're teaching future generations that conditional love is okay. That it's okay to turn our backs on our kids if they do something they wouldn't have done on The fucking Brady Bunch.  So instead of having a responsible teen parent who will be kicked out of the house by her cunt parents, she'll wait and grow up to be like her parents before having kids and when her kid becomes pregnant at 15, out the door she'll go.

I have a lot of friends my age who had kids. Most of them are even younger than me. And they do a lot better job at raising their kids than some middle aged creeps. That just blows the whole "teens are not mature enough to have kids of their own" bullshit out of the water. There are mature parents in both age groups, just as there are immature parents in both age groups. It doesn't matter if you're 30 when you have a kid, you could still be some child molesting asshole, or just can't handle kids.

And then there's this whole load of crap about how teen parents are sluts. If I haven't stated this before, I'll do it now. You can have sex fucking ONCE and get preggers. If I recall, being a slut means you sleep around a lot. And having sex once =/= sleeping around a lot, which =/= being a slut. Then I hear people say it's not that that makes you a slut, it's irresponsible sex without protection that makes you one. Alright. Then that makes all your parents a bunch of big sluts and unless you become a sex-hating nun, you'll be a slut one day, too. Sound fair?

I got into an argument with someone about Jamie Lynn Spears being pregnant. This woman/ man/hermaphrodite/neither was DEAD SET on her opinion that JLS was too young to have sex and kept reiterating it over and over again as if JLS was her damn property. I told her, bitch, you are not her, therefore you don't get to make fucking decisions for her. It's her life, it's her body, she can do whatever the fuck she wants with it. Jamie Lynn Spears is the only person in the world who gets to decide when Jamie Lynn Spears has sex. She was 16 when she got knocked up and she's 17 now and people act like it's some big deal that she got pregnant. If you had as many friends as I did who had kids, you'd be like "What took her so long?" Just kidding. But seriously. There are TWELVE year old parents out there. There's fucking TWENTY FOUR year old grandparents. And people are making a big deal about a 17 year old parent? Get over it. Then people complain that she's a role model for young kids, that she needs to set a good example. I don't think she signed a contract with a heading of "KIDS ROLE MODEL" at the top. That, and the girl has the right to live her own life and she IS a fucking human being.

I know I'd be fucking annoyed if I was famous and I did something "unpure" and I get bitched at for making "unwise" decisions because I'm some role model for young kids. I'd be  like, I never fucking forced kids to idolize me. People like that need to realize that celebrities are NOT your babysitters. You are supposed to raise your own kids, not the famous people. They didn't sign up for that. Step up and take care of your own children. How ironic that people like that get mad at those "role models" for doing something like that and bitch at them because they think they won't make good parents. I'd say to them, if you wanna see a bad parent, look in the mirror

Don't remember a lot from Thursday. Other than that I played with Gaby on Live and Michael was voted off AI. I was so mad about that! Oh, and I had trouble with brushes. Blah.Also, dealing with sleeping problems sucks.

My sleep schedule continued to plague me on Friday. I was about to go to sleep but then I had a head explosion and couldn't go back to sleep. Then, it started thundering and lightning outside. So, I just stayed awake for a long time. I finally went to bed around 2:30 after talking to Megan a couple times, MySpacin' and Eccoin' and breakfastin'.

I had a provocative dream involving one of my friends. It ended up being a wet dream in a weird way. It was bizarre, but erotic. I haven't had one of those in a really long time. Like, since I was 14. Lmao. I know you thought that was TMI. OH WELL!!! Then, I woke up late while Degrassi was on. Not much else of interest that day.

Last Saturday was warm and windy, this Saturday started off cold and snowy. Ugh. We have the most fucked up weather in Wisconsin. By the time I woke up, most of the snow had melted. Thank god! That night, I just decided to play Halo 3 on Xbox Live. I'm glad I did. It was a lot of fun. And really, the first time I actually avidly played it. Usually I play it sporadically and for like an hour at a time. I played from midnight to 4 am. I'm REALLY immersed in it, now. I even encountered this little asshole kid who talked shit to me. Lmao. He must've been younger than 12. He kept calling me a "disease" because of my gamertag. Ha. Whatever. I kicked his scrawny little ass and told him off afterwards. Bet he didn't see that coming. Looking at the video of the match, he just pussed around most of the game and went into hiding after I killed him. HAHA!! LOSER!!

I don't recall much of Sunday.. moving on.. I went to sleep EARLY on Sunday night/Monday morning at about 2 am. Then, I woke up suddenly at 6 am. Couldn't get back to slleep, and I was wide awake anyway, so I stayed up. Monday was strange. I felt fine for the first few hours, continued playing more of Halo. Which I had been doing every day since Saturday night. My mom wanted me to help with yard work, which I would have done, but I started feeling dizzy and had a headache. I think it's from lack of sleep and that I was up for a while by then. Then, my mom got a call from my dad saying the hood on the car flew back and broke the windshield when him and my bro were on their way to work. My dad accidentally didn't close it right when they were at the gas station. They're both alright. No injuries. The windshield needs to be replaced. It wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. The hood is all bent up, too.

I went to sleep after they came back home and slept for 5 hours. 3-8. Longer than I expected to. I felt bad, because it was such a nice day outside and I missed out on it. I also feel bad for not helping my mom outside, but I felt sick. I had an odd dream, in it I was at my house with my family and some guy came home with my brother. He was like some sort of lawyer. While he was here, three helicopters crashed in our yard. It wasn't a HUGE deal for some reason. To my family, it kinda was a mere disturbance, but no one else in the neighborhood seemed to notice. The copters were kinda small, too. There were people camped out in the backyard and we went out and talked to them and found out they were the reason the crashes happened and apparently there were seven building explosions in the news, they were also behind them. The man who came to our house was also involved. It ended there. It was so strange. I played it in my head afterwards and added more to it. It'd make a cool story or video game or movie..

It was so cool in my room when I woke up, the window was open and it was windy and the fan was blowing. I'm lame. I'm a sucker for nice weather, though. My dad randomly bought a new car. I watched After Dark on ShoToo and kept watching after it was over. There was this movie on after it called Urban Legends: Bloody Mary, which was kinda disturbing in some parts. It basically emulated popular urban legends. One part, this girl gets bitten by a spider and wakes up the next morning to see the bite on her cheek, she pops it, then spiders crawl out of the popped bite like crazy. Like millions of them. Then she bashes her head against the mirror and spiders pour out of her head. It was really disgusting. I fucking HATE spiders. At leas they're only myths. I think I played more Halo after that or something.. can't remember. Then, this movie called The Roost was on when I came back.. I saw the end of it. It was weird.

Slept for only a few hours because I was gonna meet Gaby on Live and my mom wanted me to wake her up at 8:30 so she could take my uncle to his doctor's appointment. Gaby and I had so much fun as usual. This time we actually playe with others in Big Team Slayer and Team Doubles. I normally only play Slayer on Rumble Pit. It was cool to branch out for once, and it's not so bad doing those other games I thought I'd suck at and wouldn't ike. I had Java Monster, an eclair torte and popcorn for breakfast. Lmao. I had been playing in ranked matches since Sunday or Monday and getting my skill level up mainly in Lone Wolves, so I continued with that on Tuesday.. I'm doing good in there. I usually get 2nd place or higher. I wanna get more wins, though.. not just 2nd place all the time.

I met some cool new people, no bratty kids. I sent three of them messages. One of them in particular, I wanted a response from and I had sent him the message while he was offline, and I noticed later that he was online, but did not respond to me, so I was kinda bummed about that. I was feeling sick again later. I think it was from lack of sleep once again. I think I get emotionally and mentally distraught when I'm sleep deprived. I slept until American Idol was 15 minutes over and felt a lot better. Watched AI, then BB9. I'm pissed I missed some of AI. I was pissed at myself again for missing out on a gorgeous day. It was warm and windy.. REALLY windy outside. I LOVE weather like that. The night was still stellar, so I went out and jumped on my trampoline that night. The moon was pretty much full and illuminated the sky. Perfect.

I avoided a potentially bad situation that night when I scratched my Rihanna CD really bad. I was freaking pissed. I tried rubbing it away, but wouldn't dissipate. The CD skipped, too. BAH!! So, I borrowed the DVD resurfacer and THANKFULLY it's good as new. It plays just fine now. Phew. Thank god for DVD doctors.. I was afraid it wouldn't work. I can still see the scratches, but it works nonetheless. I also noticed on Xbox Live's website, that I got a message back from one of the guys I talked to on Halo today. That was cool.

Woke up at 1 today (Wednesday) and went outside and enjoyed the amazing weather. Jumped on the trampoline for a while. It was still warm and windy. About 70 degrees today!I just chilled today.. didn't go on Live yet today. I also took a break from my daily workouts for a bit. I need to get back into that. I can't quit NOW.

Actually, I did go on Live for a minute today. I noticed I had 3 new messages. One of them was a friend request from the one guy I really wanted to hear back from and the other was a message from the third guy I talked to, plus the one from last night. I was happy about that! Surprised, too, because I didn't think he'd respond at all if he didn't respond right away. That rarely happens to me on MySpace. So, I was pretty tickled about that. XD

BB9 pissed me off. I'm so angry that Natalie got evicted! GRR!

Yeah, that's pretty much it.