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Tweak says, "Glaring is a powerful skill"

Toph (salubrious) wrote,
@ 2008-01-24 02:22:00

Current mood:	cynical
Current music:	What Do I Have To Do - The Donnas
Entry tags:	christmas part 2, cobra starship, heath ledger, insanejournal, layouts, mail, music, negativity, new music, new stuff, stress, the donnas

Just let go.
I've changed my custom personal-made layout for the time being. I'm simply experimenting. I really hope IJ steps up and makes their other layouts more customizable. Of course, I'm sure I need to pay for it.. >>

My background with this layout would be so boss. I hate the other layout. Okay, maybe it wouldn't be that cool coupled together, but I'd still like to tweak some things and maybe make a different background. Whatever. CUSTOMIZATION WOULD BE COOL!

I'm still finding it hard to believe Heath is gone. What the hell? So unbelievable.

What do I have to look forward to? Well, Christmas Part 2 is Saturday.. I can't help but feel less than excited. I just feel like I don't deserve to or that I shouldn't.

I'm really sick of all the bad luck my family has to face. I just need to drive to the middle of a desert and blow up because I feel that all this pressure from the weight I'm carrying is crushing my shoulders. I must set aside my humbleness; most people probably would have broken by now from all the stress that I've had to deal with but I'm still going. I think if something doesn't happen, I'm going to snap. Knowing me and knowing how long this has been building up, it's going to be a very destructive paroxysm.

The Donnas CD continues to kick ass. I'm desperate for new music. My playlist consists of songs I've heard to death. Sadly, it also consists of songs I hate. Whether I always hated them or stopped liking them over time is anyone's guess. I'm eagerly waiting for Ashlee Simpson's new CD - "Bittersweet World" to come out in March. Although I hear from Amazon that it's coming out February 19th. Hmm..

I'm getting into Cobra Starship. I like their music and their attitude. They don't care what everyone else thinks and they do their own thing. Plus, they love the gay people and in my opinion, that makes for a good band.

FedEx tricked me. They came here today. Not to deliver my AE clothes, but to drop off my brother's old Xbox 360, which he sent in for repairs. While it was gone, he bought an Elite. So now my dad has one. But, anyway. The tracking system at AE.com is WACK. According to it, it's been arriving at different ports at the same time and going in circles. Uhm.. okay? Whatever.. Better be here tomorrow.

Shit. 2:22 already. Night!

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	sapphireblueeye 2008-01-24 05:26 pm UTC (link)
	new music is on its way nod it should be there no later than monday, hopefully before =/ that's becasue FedEx sucks says the UPS worker tehehe ♥ (Reply to this) (Thread)

	salubrious 2008-01-25 03:55 am UTC (link)
	Wo0t! I can't wait! :D (Reply to this) (Parent)

knifexvsface
2008-01-25 03:44 am UTC (link)

Hola! That's cool, you have good taste in layouts among many other things. :]

Heath died by suicide, right? Well this just goes to show how even people rich and famous are unhappy. I wasn't a big fan of his, but I'm going to miss him in the movies. Sad :[

God, Topher I didn't realize what's going on, I'm really sorry. I can understand you want to runaway from it, stress can really take over your emotions and cause panic attacks.. So please be calm and positive.. Don't give up on hope. Life is not well anymore, this world is gone ridiculous, You just need to keep your head up and fuck all the bad things off your back, leave it in the past and just look foward to the future and believe that it will be BETTER days and changes. You are an amazing person, you deserve all the great things life has to offer. I wish you and your family the best. You wrote "I'm still going" That's what you should keep doing. </b>Stay Strong<3
I'm here if you need somebody to listen to anything you need to say, whatever it is I don't mind, you know I read everything and I won't ever judge or critize you.

I'm glad Ashlee is still around, I wonder what happen to Jessica? I'm glad you're enjoying The Donnas cd! That is rad, cupcake you like Cobra Starship! :]
I'm going to make a playlist.. I believe a few songs that helps me to keep going in life might be something you'd like/want to hear.

Whaaa.. you still haven't gotten your AE? I'm sorry :[ I wonder, maybe there's good reason you had to wait awhile. I hope everything goes right. Yay for the xbox! ^_^ Oh, the Elite is cool though!

I hope you're doing alright, lovely. Please believe me, everything will be okay.

infinite x's and o's.

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salubrious
2008-01-25 03:53 am UTC (link)

Thank you!

I don't think so. I believe it was an accidental overdose. It's still extremely unfortunate and tragic.

And thank you so much for being there for me. It makes it that much easier to deal with the problems in life when you know someone's got your back. And I'm more than inclined to return the favor.

Jessica's making movies. I'm sure she's still doing music. Her last CD, A Public Affair, didn't do so well.

According to the tracker now, it says the package is in my town. It must've got there after shipping time and it'll be here tomorrow for sure! =D

The Elite is definitely cool!

I'm doing alright, and I hope you are too!

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	knifexvsface 2008-01-25 03:45 am UTC (link)
	^^Sorry about the bold text, I'm still not a pro at HTML. haha. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	salubrious 2008-01-25 03:57 am UTC (link)
	Hehe. It's cool. (Reply to this) (Parent)