Woven Cognition

Don't remember a lot from Thursday. Other than that I played with Gaby on Live and Michael was voted off AI. I was so mad about that! Oh, and I had trouble with brushes. Blah.Also, dealing with sleeping problems sucks.

My sleep schedule continued to plague me on Friday. I was about to go to sleep but then I had a head explosion and couldn't go back to sleep. Then, it started thundering and lightning outside. So, I just stayed awake for a long time. I finally went to bed around 2:30 after talking to Megan a couple times, MySpacin' and Eccoin' and breakfastin'.

I had a provocative dream involving one of my friends. It ended up being a wet dream in a weird way. It was bizarre, but erotic. I haven't had one of those in a really long time. Like, since I was 14. Lmao. I know you thought that was TMI. OH WELL!!! Then, I woke up late while Degrassi was on. Not much else of interest that day.

Last Saturday was warm and windy, this Saturday started off cold and snowy. Ugh. We have the most fucked up weather in Wisconsin. By the time I woke up, most of the snow had melted. Thank god! That night, I just decided to play Halo 3 on Xbox Live. I'm glad I did. It was a lot of fun. And really, the first time I actually avidly played it. Usually I play it sporadically and for like an hour at a time. I played from midnight to 4 am. I'm REALLY immersed in it, now. I even encountered this little asshole kid who talked shit to me. Lmao. He must've been younger than 12. He kept calling me a "disease" because of my gamertag. Ha. Whatever. I kicked his scrawny little ass and told him off afterwards. Bet he didn't see that coming. Looking at the video of the match, he just pussed around most of the game and went into hiding after I killed him. HAHA!! LOSER!!

I don't recall much of Sunday.. moving on.. I went to sleep EARLY on Sunday night/Monday morning at about 2 am. Then, I woke up suddenly at 6 am. Couldn't get back to slleep, and I was wide awake anyway, so I stayed up. Monday was strange. I felt fine for the first few hours, continued playing more of Halo. Which I had been doing every day since Saturday night. My mom wanted me to help with yard work, which I would have done, but I started feeling dizzy and had a headache. I think it's from lack of sleep and that I was up for a while by then. Then, my mom got a call from my dad saying the hood on the car flew back and broke the windshield when him and my bro were on their way to work. My dad accidentally didn't close it right when they were at the gas station. They're both alright. No injuries. The windshield needs to be replaced. It wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. The hood is all bent up, too.

I went to sleep after they came back home and slept for 5 hours. 3-8. Longer than I expected to. I felt bad, because it was such a nice day outside and I missed out on it. I also feel bad for not helping my mom outside, but I felt sick. I had an odd dream, in it I was at my house with my family and some guy came home with my brother. He was like some sort of lawyer. While he was here, three helicopters crashed in our yard. It wasn't a HUGE deal for some reason. To my family, it kinda was a mere disturbance, but no one else in the neighborhood seemed to notice. The copters were kinda small, too. There were people camped out in the backyard and we went out and talked to them and found out they were the reason the crashes happened and apparently there were seven building explosions in the news, they were also behind them. The man who came to our house was also involved. It ended there. It was so strange. I played it in my head afterwards and added more to it. It'd make a cool story or video game or movie..

It was so cool in my room when I woke up, the window was open and it was windy and the fan was blowing. I'm lame. I'm a sucker for nice weather, though. My dad randomly bought a new car. I watched After Dark on ShoToo and kept watching after it was over. There was this movie on after it called Urban Legends: Bloody Mary, which was kinda disturbing in some parts. It basically emulated popular urban legends. One part, this girl gets bitten by a spider and wakes up the next morning to see the bite on her cheek, she pops it, then spiders crawl out of the popped bite like crazy. Like millions of them. Then she bashes her head against the mirror and spiders pour out of her head. It was really disgusting. I fucking HATE spiders. At leas they're only myths. I think I played more Halo after that or something.. can't remember. Then, this movie called The Roost was on when I came back.. I saw the end of it. It was weird.

Slept for only a few hours because I was gonna meet Gaby on Live and my mom wanted me to wake her up at 8:30 so she could take my uncle to his doctor's appointment. Gaby and I had so much fun as usual. This time we actually playe with others in Big Team Slayer and Team Doubles. I normally only play Slayer on Rumble Pit. It was cool to branch out for once, and it's not so bad doing those other games I thought I'd suck at and wouldn't ike. I had Java Monster, an eclair torte and popcorn for breakfast. Lmao. I had been playing in ranked matches since Sunday or Monday and getting my skill level up mainly in Lone Wolves, so I continued with that on Tuesday.. I'm doing good in there. I usually get 2nd place or higher. I wanna get more wins, though.. not just 2nd place all the time.

I met some cool new people, no bratty kids. I sent three of them messages. One of them in particular, I wanted a response from and I had sent him the message while he was offline, and I noticed later that he was online, but did not respond to me, so I was kinda bummed about that. I was feeling sick again later. I think it was from lack of sleep once again. I think I get emotionally and mentally distraught when I'm sleep deprived. I slept until American Idol was 15 minutes over and felt a lot better. Watched AI, then BB9. I'm pissed I missed some of AI. I was pissed at myself again for missing out on a gorgeous day. It was warm and windy.. REALLY windy outside. I LOVE weather like that. The night was still stellar, so I went out and jumped on my trampoline that night. The moon was pretty much full and illuminated the sky. Perfect.

I avoided a potentially bad situation that night when I scratched my Rihanna CD really bad. I was freaking pissed. I tried rubbing it away, but wouldn't dissipate. The CD skipped, too. BAH!! So, I borrowed the DVD resurfacer and THANKFULLY it's good as new. It plays just fine now. Phew. Thank god for DVD doctors.. I was afraid it wouldn't work. I can still see the scratches, but it works nonetheless. I also noticed on Xbox Live's website, that I got a message back from one of the guys I talked to on Halo today. That was cool.

Woke up at 1 today (Wednesday) and went outside and enjoyed the amazing weather. Jumped on the trampoline for a while. It was still warm and windy. About 70 degrees today!I just chilled today.. didn't go on Live yet today. I also took a break from my daily workouts for a bit. I need to get back into that. I can't quit NOW.

Actually, I did go on Live for a minute today. I noticed I had 3 new messages. One of them was a friend request from the one guy I really wanted to hear back from and the other was a message from the third guy I talked to, plus the one from last night. I was happy about that! Surprised, too, because I didn't think he'd respond at all if he didn't respond right away. That rarely happens to me on MySpace. So, I was pretty tickled about that. XD

BB9 pissed me off. I'm so angry that Natalie got evicted! GRR!

Yeah, that's pretty much it.

Unfortunately, the day after my amazing day on Saturday wasn't so spectacular. I don't remember when the day began for me, so whatever. While I was watching Big Brother, I noticed across the street, a dead cat. I thought for the longest time that it was just a pile of snow, but the snow has all melted. I went to go check and sure enough, it was my cat that disappeared around Christmastime. I was more angry than sad. I was kinda expecting him to be dead. He must have been like that for a long time, since I noticed him there weeks ago, but I thought he was a pile of snow. I can't even tell where his face is. Poor kitty. I fucking hate people who run over animals. I can understand if it were an accident or if you can't help it. But I know there are people who purposely run over animals, and I seriously hope those people get what's coming to them. Maybe I should hop into a car and "accidentally" hit those people. OOPS!

Then Strommen found my "hidden" MySpace. How the fuck did he find me? I used a false name when registering and I have a fake location. Any friend I have on my "school safe" MySpace that I'm also friends with on my "hidden" one is private, therefore he can't find me through them. Fucking freak. Whatever. I really don't give a shit. It just really annoys me.

Finally, I really hurt the teeth on the left side of my mouth. It may be because I don't brush my teeth as much that I should, or that I bit on something really hard and jarred my mouth. Well, it hurt while I was eating after I bit on something really hard earlier. I thought I chipped a tooth, but I checked and nothing looks any different. I took some ibuprofen and put a cold gel pack up to my cheek which only killed some of the pain. The next morning, I thought it had gone away completely, but my cheek still hurt. Kinda in the same way that my face hurts sometimes, but worse and longer. I numbed my cheek and kept using cold compresses which would only work for a short amount of time.

Tuesday morning, I played on Live with Gaby and I noticed my face didn't hurt at all until a little while into playing with her. We actually got to play more for once. It was fun as always. I was pretty popular that day, I was getting calls and stuff from everyone. A short time after that, the little pain that was still there was now gone and it hasn't come back since. THANK YOU! I'll brush more often. I need to take better care of myself.

Uck. It snowed again last night, but luckily it's gone now. I also caught up on LG15 again. I was expecting A LOT to be different now, since I hadn't paid attention to it since the season 2 finale at the end of January (same day I got XBox Live! :D) but there wasn't much different, still a cool show anyway.

Watching American Idol Gives Back and Big Brother 9. James is gone! And Idol Gives Back is pretty cool, too.

Alright. Here we go again. TRYING TO REMEMBER EVERYTHING THAT GOES ON IN MY BORING LIFE!! For the last time on here!

Let's see.. I left off on Easter. Both of my video games are awesome. If I hadn't stated that already. Thank god, too. I was worried they wouldn't be good, knowing my luck..

I still have been kinda paranoid about my health. But I know there's nothing wrong with me, so I just need to convince myself that. I am getting better though, feeling better physically and mentally.

Unfortunately, my sleep schedule keeps getting later and later and because my bed isn't the most comfortable bed ever, I keep waking up with a bad headache and neck pain. Blah.

Well, I'm officially announcing that I am over Richard. I know, I know. It's a huge shock. I bet a lot of you don't even know who I'm talking about, though. Haha. Thanks to GJ going down.  For me, the only thing that can break a crush is another man. But, since I haven't seen Richard in nearly a year, I suppose that'll do it, too.

Now, I'm searching for new guys. I've been making, or attempting to make new friends on MySpace. Hopefully t all works out.

I've been having some vivid dreams again. In one of them, I was in the Big Brother house again. I dunno if I talked about the other one I had a while ago. Anyway, in this one I was in the HOH room and I was stupefied because I was actually in the BB house and I was on TV. It was  a surreal feeling and above all, I was the first HOH of the season. It was pretty cool. XD

One night I had three dreams, the first one I was back in the trailer and there was some homophobe man sitting at the kitchen table antagonizing me and bossing me around and no one in my family would do anything about it, so I got a shotgun and killed him. The next one was interesting, I was at the trailer again and we were being attacked by really fat, evil pigeons. So, me and Kah ran to a truck and we started being attacked, so Kah used her powers to "purify" the truck, which meant making it spin in the air like a tornado to get rid of them. LMAO. So random. The last one I barely remember, I was at my current house and it had to do with my family sitting at the table and my parakeet. That's all I remember.

Brenda, Moriah and I also prank called people on Saturday. Good times for sure! XD

Today was the best day I had in a long time. I woke up early and played on Xbox Live with Gaby and we talked on there. It's been a while since we did that. It was a lot of fun! After that, I listened to music and found a great guy and just chilled out. It was great. I only had four hours of sleep, so I went back to bed after that for a few hours. The weather is amazing. It was supposed to snow, but it didn't.  Woke up, watched American Idol and Big Brother and that special about how you can live to be 150 years old. Yes, it was most definitely a good start to April. Besides having a headache.

New music on MySpace and YouTube videos have been keeping me happy. Yay broadband! I've been way more active on MySpace, too. It really is a lot of fun and I'm also introducing my friends to each other. I love doing that, and I love meeting new friends.



So, this is it, folks. I'm leaving IJ and LJ.. blogging is just becoming too much of a hassle. I just want to live and not have to worry about documenting it. If you want to stay in contact with me, check my userinfo page. Bye!














Gotcha. APRIL FOOLS!!

I'm going to make this quick because I'm preparing for the assfuck of the century.

Uhh.. let's see. Woke up from a strangely erotic and elaborate dream, several actually, feeling incredibly ill. My head felt like it was made of lead and my body and stomach ached. That's okay though. When I feel sick I just imagine my men taking care of me.

Today being the 21st of February marks the 11th anniversary of my family moving out of my uncle's house into my current one. What a coincidence that all this shit surrounding my uncle's living arrangements should be happening now. Perhaps things will come full circle and my uncle will move in with us or in his own new trailer.

To celebrate the occasion and to follow the theme of bad luck, my dad was suspended his job for three days for mixing up an order. They almost fired him but didn't. Lucky. My brother and dad are both looking for new jobs because apparently that place sucks.

Watched American Idol and dyed my hair black. I still feel nasty. Blahdy blahdy blah. I wanna do something fun. Laters.

I'm going to make an actual update for today..

Well, this morning started on a rather disturbing note. Regarding a nightmare I had, I don't remember the first part anymore, unfortunately. But, in the end of it I was looking out the patio window, and above the trees, in the distance, I saw a huge plume cloud of fire. I freaked out because I thought it was a nuke. My family and I ran outside to see that it was actually my neighbor's house that blew up completely. But, the house was to the left of mine where the church is right now.. It was really scary, and I was thinking about how the other people in the community would feel about it.. especially Richard. I'm not exactly sure why.

The day started off well.. sorta. I felt awful, but I took some medicine and my headache went away. I watched ATWT and then went online and proceeded to fuck around, doing the normal things I usually do..

Then I found out that Heath Ledger died and I was completely floored. I was in utter shock and disbelief, and I still am now. It's another case of one minute they're there, the next they're gone. It's so fucking tragic. I thought it was shocking to find out he split up with Michelle Williams, but this is too unreal. He's just not someone you ever picture dying. Ever. I've been reading about it everywhere. Some people on the Facebook groups and IMDB boards are fucking assholes. They write the dumbest, most heartless shit. People said others had no room to mourn him because they didn't know him personally and that he didn't deserve to be missed/he wasn't a good person because he played a gay man in Brokeback Mountain. FUCK THEM! Fucking seriously, those people can rot in hell. I have no tolerance for that bullshit at all.

Some people just make me sick. On IMDB, they were making a game out of who will die next. Laughing and joking how "funny" it would be if Britney Spears or someone else would die. I mean seriously? Grow up and seek psychiatric help. Call me crazy, but I don't think death is a very humorous subject. Unless it's dealt to some horrible human being who actually wears that title loosely. I fall to pieces whenever death hits relatively close because I HATE IT.

Nevertheless, that news really darkened my day and I'm really sad that he's gone. He had so much ahead of him. I told my mom and she couldn't believe it either. She told me "these things happen in threes," and that it happened to Brad Renfro last week, which I knew already and Suzanne Pleshette died a few days ago.. so I guess that's three.. It still shouldn't have happened. I feel bad for Michelle and their daughter Matilda.

RIP Heath Ledger, you will be missed.

On a lighter note, I did watch American Idol and One Tree Hill later on, which brightened my mood up a bit. OTH is so different now. They don't even have a theme song. My brother burned me a copy of the CD I got him for his birthday. Oh, he loved the card and gift, by the way. The Donnas' "Bitchin'" is really good!

I guess that's all. My dad and brother are stranded at work.. we can't get to them, so.. I guess we'll see what happens. This day blows. Later.

I had a much better day today than yesterday. The refinance money FINALLY came to us in the mail today. It was funny, because my mom stepped out for a few minutes and asked me to watch for the UPS guy to come and sign the paper if she wasn't back in time. Well, she came back and they hadn't come yet. We saw the UPS truck go down the lane next to my house, and my dad opened the door and there it was in the doorway. I KNEW I heard a noise of some sort. Strange they didn't ask for a signature, or even ring the doorbell at least. But, whatever. I'm not complaining.

Well, last week Friday I was looking at AE.com at the clothes I wanted for Christmas part 2, and the prices were at an incredibly low price! So I told my mom about it ASAP, and I even found another shirt for a good deal. They were only available on the website, but my mom didn't have enough money in her account to pay for it. So, we had to wait 'til today to buy them. I was worried they'd no longer be available, but they were. And she ordered 'em. Wo0t!

My brother got an XBox 360 Elite. I'm jealous, but it's cool! Then we got food from Fox's. Oh my god, their food is orgasmic. I love ordering from there. I was stuffed. It's rare that that happens to me. I spent the day watching SOAP Net. Lmao. Then I watched American Idol. Entertaining as always. And some hot guys went through. Yay! I hope there's even more that'll stick around for a long time!

I had an enormous headache today, and I ended up taking a lot of aspirin for it. Finally, it's gone. Watched One Tree Hill also. I need to watch the 4th season. This season is so much different than the others, but it's good. By the way.. Omgwtfk-fed?

P.S. I miss Richard. ;_;