Woven Cognition

Yesterday had me worried and happy all the same.

I know I'm headed for a nervous breakdown even though a lot of times, I feel in control. It's those times when I feel like I'm losing it that are building up and will ultimately do me in in the end.

I'm a major hypochondriac; yesterday I saw a bump under my right wrist beneath my skin. I had no idea what it was. It felt hard, like a bone. But me suffering from intense anxiety, paranoia and being a hypochondriac, I thought it was cancer. I FLIPPED OUT. I thought I was fucking doomed.

I was way stressed yesterday afternoon. My parents and brother were in town. I was home by myself. My fucking dog got ahold of something and was gonna chew it up. So I spent an hour trying to get it away from the bastard. Stupid dog. Bah. He needs to be disciplined. Majorly. I called my mom, asking how to get it away from him, but nothing worked. At one point, she randomly stopped answering the phone and I freaked then, because I was worried something bad happened. It sucks to realize that it's come to that point when something as simple as someone not answering their phone, that I completely freak out.

Before they left, my mom and dad looked at my bump and said it was a vein, but I had my doubts. Well, I eventually got it back from the dog. Luckily it wasn't anything important. They came home and brought me back The OC season three! :D I was psyched. And they also bought me 1600 Microsoft points for Live!

I watched the first disc of season three so far. I wanna stave it off as long as possible until I get season four.. And just my luck, my mom just found an ad for Best Buy that all four seasons are available for $17.. MOTHERFUCKER! I wish I would've known that. Instead of spending $40 or $50 bucks on it. Well, guess I'll get season four sometime this week.. YAY! At least I'll get that for $17..

We ordered from Fox's.. and like the last two times, I coincidentally got a major headache when I ate.. I dunno what it is. Bah. Bad fucking luck. Didn't help that I was still obsessing over the fucking bump. I felt fucking nauseous, so I practically passed out. I woke up a few hours later and I had a sleeping headache, or it was from the one that was coming. Felt like I got shot in the head. Took some pills.

It went away quite fast. I had to decide how I would spend my MP.. I wanted to buy Ecco the Dolphin, Street Fighter II, and the new maps for Halo 3.. which would amount to 2000 points.. I wanted the games more than the maps, so that's what I bought. Good news is, is that I'm only 400 pts away from the new maps as well. :D Unfortunately SFII lags like a mofo on Live. Hopefully it won't always be like that..

FORTUNATELY!!! My mom took another look at the bump on my arm and told me it was a TENDON. I was SO FUCKING RELIEVED! I KNEW it felt like a bone. I asked her why it was so pronounced, she tells me it's because I'm a guy, but I told her there was no bump on my other arm and that it wasn't always like that and she suggested it was inflamed. Which made sense because my hand had been hurting after playing a lot of Tekken 2 the night before and it was only a little after that that I noticed the bump. Plus, I've been using my hands a lot.. typing.. gaming especially.. so it makes sense. My other hand hurts a little, too. I put an ice pack on it and it helped the pain go away for a while.

My cousin Donnie's coming today. Hopefully not 'til like midnight. I've been working on cleaning and helping out before he comes. Been working yesterday and today. I only got five hours of sleep. I'm exhausted. I'll take a nap after the Super Bowl, which I'm currently watching now. The halftime show is going to start after the next commercial. GO GIANTS! The commercials have been pretty rad. XD

Well, I'm gonna jet before it starts. Later!

Blah. I'm sick.

I'm about to go and watch the Green Bay Packers play the New York Giants. The second football game I actually paid attention to. XD The first one was last weekend. GO PACKERS!! They will win. =P

Well, yesterday was very lazy. My parents were in town most of the day doing Christmas Part 2 shopping. I was planning on going shopping with my brother after they got back.. but he was doing something else. Argh. He's ditched me in doing this for DAYS! Whatever..

I watched this show called Psych on USA. It's a good show! I need to add it to my shows to watch. I plan on boycotting The N relatively soon. My once favorite network is now one of the shittiest in my opinion. I thought that when it went 24/7, it'd be smarter, but it only made room for more stupidity. Instead of perpetuating their original programming, they're cancelling most of it, and flooding the channel with Nickelodeon reruns. If I wanted that, I'd just tune to Nickelodeon. God. Also, they're cancelling a bunch of their pending series. Well, whatever. I'll laugh when all they have left is Degrassi and Nick shows.

I got food from Fox's last night. Love that place. I really didn't do a whole lot after that.. just messed around with IJ and LJ trying to get the perfect layouts and stuff.

My American Eagle clothing my mom ordered for me never arrived yesterday when it really should've.. the shipping place must've closed or something. Strange.

It's a great night to have a football game in Green Bay. It's freezing out and there's a full moon! The elements are definitely on our side tonight!

Me and my brother aren't going shopping tonight, either. The heater in his car blew. Sooo.. I dunno when we'll do it. Maybe he should just do it. I feel like shit, anyway. I feel terrible.. =/

Last night was when my sickness began. Strommen called me at 3:24 AM. He was apparently "drunk," and he thought I called him. The missed call beep coming from my phone was in my dream and eventually, it woke me up an hour later. I forgot what the hell I was dreaming about, too. But I remember it was interesting. I couldn't get back to sleep after that until about 7:22 am. I felt awful.

Well, the game's about to begin. GO PACKERS!!

Having the house to myself for a few hours does constitute for a good day in my opinion. I spent it watching soaps on SOAPNet. XD After taking a long shower/bath, of course.

I finally got some McDonald's food I'd been craving for a while. Mmm.. Then I watched American Idol. Today seemed really long and eventful, but I didn't really do a lot at all.

Me and Brenda talked on the phone for a long time. I love that girl. Gaby finally got to see The Countdown! I'm so happy! =D Hopefully she'll be getting an IJ tomorrow!

Earlier today, I was on eBay looking for these cool cellphone cases for my Motorola RAZR. They were hard plastic and clear. My mom helped me find 'em, since she found them before. The first time I saw them, my friend had a red one for her RAZR. I want one or some for CP2. I found some really cool ones, including some green ones I'd been looking for. Soo.. we'll see! =P Luckily, I found out the proper name for those cases are "Crystal cases," or clear, or hard cases. Good to know!

Congratulations to my friend, Jessikah. She gave birth to a baby boy, Connor Elias, today at 3 pm. I love you Kah! I'm extremely happy for you! =] <33333

Goodnight!

I had a much better day today than yesterday. The refinance money FINALLY came to us in the mail today. It was funny, because my mom stepped out for a few minutes and asked me to watch for the UPS guy to come and sign the paper if she wasn't back in time. Well, she came back and they hadn't come yet. We saw the UPS truck go down the lane next to my house, and my dad opened the door and there it was in the doorway. I KNEW I heard a noise of some sort. Strange they didn't ask for a signature, or even ring the doorbell at least. But, whatever. I'm not complaining.

Well, last week Friday I was looking at AE.com at the clothes I wanted for Christmas part 2, and the prices were at an incredibly low price! So I told my mom about it ASAP, and I even found another shirt for a good deal. They were only available on the website, but my mom didn't have enough money in her account to pay for it. So, we had to wait 'til today to buy them. I was worried they'd no longer be available, but they were. And she ordered 'em. Wo0t!

My brother got an XBox 360 Elite. I'm jealous, but it's cool! Then we got food from Fox's. Oh my god, their food is orgasmic. I love ordering from there. I was stuffed. It's rare that that happens to me. I spent the day watching SOAP Net. Lmao. Then I watched American Idol. Entertaining as always. And some hot guys went through. Yay! I hope there's even more that'll stick around for a long time!

I had an enormous headache today, and I ended up taking a lot of aspirin for it. Finally, it's gone. Watched One Tree Hill also. I need to watch the 4th season. This season is so much different than the others, but it's good. By the way.. Omgwtfk-fed?

P.S. I miss Richard. ;_;