Woven Cognition

It's the last day of April. Sigh. What's the big deal, you ask? Nothing, really. For some reason, this month has brought me a lot of nice things. I met new people, made new friends, overcame obstacles and had a lot of fun. This month has been fantastic ever since the first day.But, here's to a whole bunch of other great months in the future!

I've been having a bittersweet week thus far. On Monday, I was bored for almost the entire day. I actually started playing on Halo 3 with friends I currently have. Normally, once I add someone as a friend on Xbox Live, I don't really play with them again. Which is probably why so many of them end up deleting me. But even so, they shouldn't. They should be just a little more patient with me. I can understand if your friends list is filling up and you wanna weed out the people you don't play with/talk to, but some of these people only have like 5 friends max. This isn't what this entry's about, though.

I played a few games on Forge with Gaby's brother and my other friend, Mitch. I didn't meet these two on Xbox Live, though. Well, Gaby's brother, technically I did. Whatever. Mitch and I played a few games later that night and one of my other friends, who added me from Halo 3 was online, so I sent him an invite to join us and he eventually came and played with us. It was a lot of fun. The guy's really cool. He's the one I wrote about in an earlier entry - the one I thought would ignore me but sent me a friend request instead. Hah.

We played a few rounds, and then they both had to leave so I went to bed after that. Unfortunately that day, I was also getting sick. My throat started to feel funny, so I started spraying Zicam in my throat. My brother was getting that feeling when we were bringing Chazz home, and now he's sick. I'm like a sickness magnet, so of course I'd be next. My throat got progressively worse and the next day it was unbearable. I woke up early, being unable to sleep any longer, plus I wanted to play with Gaby. She couldn't go on , her brother stayed home sick. What a coincidence. It's okay, I probably shouldn't have been talking anyway.

I napped a couple times throughout the day. Took some "tasteless" medicine you mix with a drink. It's not so tasteless. It's downright nauseating. Fuck that, I'm sticking with the throat spray. It hurt to talk, breathe and swallow. It hurt A LOT. I coulld barely talk at all. My cousin came over and she and my mom went out to eat and back to her place. My mom wanted to get away from my crazy uncle. I don't blame her one bit. I chilled at home and kept watch of things. My mom came back a couple of hours later and brought me back food and cough drops. I hadn't had a cough drop since that morning and I was DYING for one. After I ate, my throat felt a lot better. My cousin also let me have her jester hat she got when my brother, my dad and my brother's friend and her went down to Louisiana to get the shit my bro's ex gf stole from him back. Man, she remembered I wanted a hat like that and that happened 8 or so years ago. I'm surprised she still remembers. Haha. It's a cool hat, though! She's so generous. She paid for everything! I owe her a lot.

Mitch, his friend and I played Halo again that night. My friend never showed up. He said he was going to. Something musta came up. I did see him online during the day, though.

Today, my throat felt a lot better. I could talk again! But my other cold symptoms flared up. I had a stuffy nose, a cough and my head hurt. I lazed around today. Didn't play Xbox Live at al.. NOBODY'S ON! What the hell? I really wanna play with my new friend again. He's cool and fun to play with.

I'm getting my new TV on Saturday! Yay! That guardian bitch comes over on Friday. Luckily, I won't have to deal with her at all. Little Miss Obsessive music video's on tomorrow's TRL. It'll be a good next couple days!

I'm sorta crushin' on someone again. But I don't think it'll last very long. I really need a boyfriend. I'm such a fucking relationship virgin, I'd probably not know how to go about it if it smacked me in the face.

I got to get out of the house for a few hours with my mom. It wasn't some kind of expedition or a shopping trip, but it was good to get away for some time. I went with her to run errands of the lawyer and bank variety. And, we got to go across the new bridge. It's so fucking weird that the other bridge is gone. I don't like it. Change sucks. The new bridge is so... weird. It's like being in another country.

Anyway, it was raining and lightning like crazy. It stormed off an on all day. It was also the Day of Silence, but I wasn't very silent. Haha. Instead, I just wrote about it.

Saturday was both long and a lot of fun. I woke up around 1 or so. It was dark, cloudy, cold and windy. I liked it. It was too cold to do anything outside, so I just had the window open. I went back to playing Halo again. I met this one guy on there and put him on my friends.

My brother's friend Chazz came over. I played him on Halo before, but I had never met him in person. He's pretty cool. We all played a bunch of rounds of Halo 3 and then we took him home. It was a fun day.

I just got done watching the finale of Big Brother 9. I'm glad Adam won, but I'm PISSED that James won the favorite juror prize. Fuck James. He doesn't deserve shit. Natalie or Matt deserved to win that. Oh well. BIG BROTHER 10 PREMIERES JULY 13!! YAY!!

Since I HATE having to recall a week or more of events when I update, I'm going to update about Thursday, April 17th - Friday, April 18th 12:00AM - 5:14AM, 2008 RIGHT NOW!!

Well, the most I can say is Xbox Live Halo 3 and sleeping addict = me. Yeah. I went to bed about 24 hours later than I woke up the day before. I figured at 5 am, that since I was gonna meet Gaby on Live in a few hours, no point in sleeping. I'd just be tired that way. We played for only about an hour and she had to leave. We need to practice our Team Doublez. :P And I spell it with a 'z' because this one guy with a really hot voice spelled it like that and it'll probably heighten my chances of getting into his pants if I spell things just like he does. Despite the fact that I haven't talked to him since I added him. Oh, sigh.

Anyway.. I've become Mr. Popularity on Live.. probably because I actually avidly use it now. I got two friend requests today and one person accepted one I sent. I feel bad though, 'cause this guy I added wanted to talk to me on private chat, but I never accepted. I jut don't know what we'd talk about. I'd feel awkward. Maybe another time. I just told him I lost my mic. Plus, I was playing in a game. I don't want him hearing my violent rants. Haha.

I was playing Swords and I was sucking bad in the beginning, got better, sucked again after that and I was getting really frustrated so I just lost it and started kicking everyone's asses. It was awesome. Someone caught up and surpassedme, but then I just kicked it into overdrive and won. I was PISSED though, 'cause after that, I switched games for Halo 2 and little did I know that that'd cause me to lose all my recent unsaved videos. So that brilliant victory is gone. =[ But, I still have a record of it at least.

My brother wanted me to play Halo 2 on Live with him. But I had to redownload a bunch of maps first, and it wasn't cooperating, so I just gave up and told him I'd play tomorrow.

Oh, and there was this douchebag on Oddball who called everyone a dumbass for killing him when he didn't have the ball. He said you only kill the person with the ball. Uhm, asshole, if that were true, you wouldn't show up in RED. You show up in green if you're not supposed to kill the person and you'd lose a point. That's the object of the game. Retard. Oh, and he was doing the same thing he was preaching against. Fuckass. God, I love the Theater feature.

My uncle is driving everyone crazy. I REALLY wish he could move back home. I do not like him staying here. Nobody does. He's being really ungrateful and he blames us for what happened. He doesn't realize how hard my parents fought to get him here and he acts like this? Have a little gratitude. We cold have not done anything and let him get sent to some awful nursing home.

My parents went to the dentist's office and I crashed. I woke up periodically, but slept until about 8 pm. I had some dinner and my stomach started hurting bad. It felt sick when I first woke up, actually. So, I went back to sleep until 11:30 or so.

I showed my family some of those Chenbot videos. XD Those are great. "But first.." And then we saw some video from the premiere of Big Brother 1. It's been so long since I saw BB1. Everything is so different. Better now, though. For sure. It looks so primitive compared to the way it is now.

I downloaded those maps and I played some rounds of H2 with my brother and his friend. I played solo twice before they joined me. It's so much harder than Halo 3. And Halo 2 looks so much more primitive than Halo 3. In one of the later games, I came across this guy from the second game I played on Halo 2 alone. He started talking shit to me, but I ignored him. I sucked at that game, but I beat his stupid ass. Punk ass bitch. I wanna meet up with him again and chew him out. I looked at his Service Record and he SUCKS. HAHA! Moron.

Anyway, that's all for me. I dunno how to go about today.. I slept for like a thousand hours yesterday. Meh... I hate my sleep patterns..

Don't remember a lot from Thursday. Other than that I played with Gaby on Live and Michael was voted off AI. I was so mad about that! Oh, and I had trouble with brushes. Blah.Also, dealing with sleeping problems sucks.

My sleep schedule continued to plague me on Friday. I was about to go to sleep but then I had a head explosion and couldn't go back to sleep. Then, it started thundering and lightning outside. So, I just stayed awake for a long time. I finally went to bed around 2:30 after talking to Megan a couple times, MySpacin' and Eccoin' and breakfastin'.

I had a provocative dream involving one of my friends. It ended up being a wet dream in a weird way. It was bizarre, but erotic. I haven't had one of those in a really long time. Like, since I was 14. Lmao. I know you thought that was TMI. OH WELL!!! Then, I woke up late while Degrassi was on. Not much else of interest that day.

Last Saturday was warm and windy, this Saturday started off cold and snowy. Ugh. We have the most fucked up weather in Wisconsin. By the time I woke up, most of the snow had melted. Thank god! That night, I just decided to play Halo 3 on Xbox Live. I'm glad I did. It was a lot of fun. And really, the first time I actually avidly played it. Usually I play it sporadically and for like an hour at a time. I played from midnight to 4 am. I'm REALLY immersed in it, now. I even encountered this little asshole kid who talked shit to me. Lmao. He must've been younger than 12. He kept calling me a "disease" because of my gamertag. Ha. Whatever. I kicked his scrawny little ass and told him off afterwards. Bet he didn't see that coming. Looking at the video of the match, he just pussed around most of the game and went into hiding after I killed him. HAHA!! LOSER!!

I don't recall much of Sunday.. moving on.. I went to sleep EARLY on Sunday night/Monday morning at about 2 am. Then, I woke up suddenly at 6 am. Couldn't get back to slleep, and I was wide awake anyway, so I stayed up. Monday was strange. I felt fine for the first few hours, continued playing more of Halo. Which I had been doing every day since Saturday night. My mom wanted me to help with yard work, which I would have done, but I started feeling dizzy and had a headache. I think it's from lack of sleep and that I was up for a while by then. Then, my mom got a call from my dad saying the hood on the car flew back and broke the windshield when him and my bro were on their way to work. My dad accidentally didn't close it right when they were at the gas station. They're both alright. No injuries. The windshield needs to be replaced. It wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. The hood is all bent up, too.

I went to sleep after they came back home and slept for 5 hours. 3-8. Longer than I expected to. I felt bad, because it was such a nice day outside and I missed out on it. I also feel bad for not helping my mom outside, but I felt sick. I had an odd dream, in it I was at my house with my family and some guy came home with my brother. He was like some sort of lawyer. While he was here, three helicopters crashed in our yard. It wasn't a HUGE deal for some reason. To my family, it kinda was a mere disturbance, but no one else in the neighborhood seemed to notice. The copters were kinda small, too. There were people camped out in the backyard and we went out and talked to them and found out they were the reason the crashes happened and apparently there were seven building explosions in the news, they were also behind them. The man who came to our house was also involved. It ended there. It was so strange. I played it in my head afterwards and added more to it. It'd make a cool story or video game or movie..

It was so cool in my room when I woke up, the window was open and it was windy and the fan was blowing. I'm lame. I'm a sucker for nice weather, though. My dad randomly bought a new car. I watched After Dark on ShoToo and kept watching after it was over. There was this movie on after it called Urban Legends: Bloody Mary, which was kinda disturbing in some parts. It basically emulated popular urban legends. One part, this girl gets bitten by a spider and wakes up the next morning to see the bite on her cheek, she pops it, then spiders crawl out of the popped bite like crazy. Like millions of them. Then she bashes her head against the mirror and spiders pour out of her head. It was really disgusting. I fucking HATE spiders. At leas they're only myths. I think I played more Halo after that or something.. can't remember. Then, this movie called The Roost was on when I came back.. I saw the end of it. It was weird.

Slept for only a few hours because I was gonna meet Gaby on Live and my mom wanted me to wake her up at 8:30 so she could take my uncle to his doctor's appointment. Gaby and I had so much fun as usual. This time we actually playe with others in Big Team Slayer and Team Doubles. I normally only play Slayer on Rumble Pit. It was cool to branch out for once, and it's not so bad doing those other games I thought I'd suck at and wouldn't ike. I had Java Monster, an eclair torte and popcorn for breakfast. Lmao. I had been playing in ranked matches since Sunday or Monday and getting my skill level up mainly in Lone Wolves, so I continued with that on Tuesday.. I'm doing good in there. I usually get 2nd place or higher. I wanna get more wins, though.. not just 2nd place all the time.

I met some cool new people, no bratty kids. I sent three of them messages. One of them in particular, I wanted a response from and I had sent him the message while he was offline, and I noticed later that he was online, but did not respond to me, so I was kinda bummed about that. I was feeling sick again later. I think it was from lack of sleep once again. I think I get emotionally and mentally distraught when I'm sleep deprived. I slept until American Idol was 15 minutes over and felt a lot better. Watched AI, then BB9. I'm pissed I missed some of AI. I was pissed at myself again for missing out on a gorgeous day. It was warm and windy.. REALLY windy outside. I LOVE weather like that. The night was still stellar, so I went out and jumped on my trampoline that night. The moon was pretty much full and illuminated the sky. Perfect.

I avoided a potentially bad situation that night when I scratched my Rihanna CD really bad. I was freaking pissed. I tried rubbing it away, but wouldn't dissipate. The CD skipped, too. BAH!! So, I borrowed the DVD resurfacer and THANKFULLY it's good as new. It plays just fine now. Phew. Thank god for DVD doctors.. I was afraid it wouldn't work. I can still see the scratches, but it works nonetheless. I also noticed on Xbox Live's website, that I got a message back from one of the guys I talked to on Halo today. That was cool.

Woke up at 1 today (Wednesday) and went outside and enjoyed the amazing weather. Jumped on the trampoline for a while. It was still warm and windy. About 70 degrees today!I just chilled today.. didn't go on Live yet today. I also took a break from my daily workouts for a bit. I need to get back into that. I can't quit NOW.

Actually, I did go on Live for a minute today. I noticed I had 3 new messages. One of them was a friend request from the one guy I really wanted to hear back from and the other was a message from the third guy I talked to, plus the one from last night. I was happy about that! Surprised, too, because I didn't think he'd respond at all if he didn't respond right away. That rarely happens to me on MySpace. So, I was pretty tickled about that. XD

BB9 pissed me off. I'm so angry that Natalie got evicted! GRR!

Yeah, that's pretty much it.

Let's just say that these past few days have been absolutely amazing. It is a relief to finally be able to say that without sarcasm. All I have to say is thank you to whoever got me out of that depression mess.

Now, to elaborate; I'll start with Thursday night / Friday morning. I was watching Hostel on Showtime when I was considering going on Xbox Live to surprise my brother since I kinda have been avoiding it and have turned down all his requests for me to join him and his friends on there to play. I decided to return to Xbox Live and played Halo 3 with my brother and his friend, Chazz. I had a lot of fun! I'm getting back into the swing of it all and I don't give a shit what people say anymore. I won't let it ruin my fun. We played for a few hours. I had signal trouble at first, but it went away for the most part after a while.

The Heroic Map set is now free. I'm stoked. That was the original intention for buying those MPs a few months ago, but instead I bought Street Fighter II HF and Ecco the Dolphin instead. I didn't have enough points after that to buy it. Now it's free! Good things come to those who wait after all. I couldn't download it at the time, but I planned to later. After they signed off, I played FEAR, where I broke down more walls. I used to be shy on the mic and wouldn't talk to people I didn't know even if they talked to me first, I wouldn't even have the headset connected much of the time. Sometimes I'd have it connected, but muted. But this time I talked! It seems lame, but I think it's cool. It was great. I made some new friends. The first guy I talked to was British and had a thick accent. XD It was kinda hard to understand him sometimes, but it was all good.

Slept until 2, but woke up a few times before and thought it was like 7 at night, but it was only noon so I went back to bed. Haha. I wanted to watch the Degrassi Spring Break Movie. It was good.. but, it really wasn't a movie. It was just an hour long special. Movies, even made for TV movies are usually an hour and a half long without commercials. With commercials, 2 hours. Whatever. It was still good. Can't wait for new episodes next week.

I watched the videos of the games I played on Halo 3 the night before. Haha. Fun times. Took a bunch of screenshots, too.

I met this guy named Josh on MySpace on Tuesday the same way I met pretty much everyone else. But what wasn't the same was that he actually talks back to me unlike many other people! We messaged each other back and forth over the past few days. We talked about our lives, backgrounds, interests, being gay. XD All that. He added me on MSN and Yahoo last night/yesterday morning. We talked more about whatever. It's great getting to know him. He's such a great guy and he's only a year younger than me. One problem, he's taken. But you know, I'm more than happy to be friends with him.

Yesterday was such an incredible day. It was so fucking nice outside. The nicest day of the year so far. Warm, sunny and windy. The perfect trio. The night before, I asked my dad to fix my fan 'cause it's always so stuffy and warm in my room. He told me he was just gonna buy me a new one, which was really generous of him. My parents went up to my uncle's house while I was asleep, then came back and let me know they were going to town and I had to watch over the house. When they left I went outside and jumped on the tramp named Oline, which is just fine despite being outside for the duration of the long, cold winter. Surprising! I spent a lot of time outside and I felt so much better than I had all week... all month.. ALL YEAR! Being cooped up in my room during the winter sucks. What else am I to do, though? The fresh air and activity revitalized me.

When my parents came home, I ate and I talked to Josh and watched TV. Which is pretty much what I was doing before they came home, minus the eating. My new fan is slightly different than my old one, unfortunately. But it is new and it works great. It feels so nice to have a new, working fan. I hope it lasts a while. Especially knowing the way the summer is here..

Later, my parents, brother and I all played frisbee in the dark with this old '80s light up frisbee my mom won on eBay. It's not bad spending time with the family and I had fun. XD I was gonna go on my webcam but I got a headache. Bah. I didn't feel like it anymore. Talked to a million people for the rest of the night. On the phone, online and texting (online).

I just got added by this guy named Adrian and for once, soomeone who added me is cute!

Well, I'm gonna go to bed now since it's bright outside. Nyeh. Goodnight.. or morning, all! I'll keep you updated on my fabulous days to come!

Alright. Here we go again. TRYING TO REMEMBER EVERYTHING THAT GOES ON IN MY BORING LIFE!! For the last time on here!

Let's see.. I left off on Easter. Both of my video games are awesome. If I hadn't stated that already. Thank god, too. I was worried they wouldn't be good, knowing my luck..

I still have been kinda paranoid about my health. But I know there's nothing wrong with me, so I just need to convince myself that. I am getting better though, feeling better physically and mentally.

Unfortunately, my sleep schedule keeps getting later and later and because my bed isn't the most comfortable bed ever, I keep waking up with a bad headache and neck pain. Blah.

Well, I'm officially announcing that I am over Richard. I know, I know. It's a huge shock. I bet a lot of you don't even know who I'm talking about, though. Haha. Thanks to GJ going down.  For me, the only thing that can break a crush is another man. But, since I haven't seen Richard in nearly a year, I suppose that'll do it, too.

Now, I'm searching for new guys. I've been making, or attempting to make new friends on MySpace. Hopefully t all works out.

I've been having some vivid dreams again. In one of them, I was in the Big Brother house again. I dunno if I talked about the other one I had a while ago. Anyway, in this one I was in the HOH room and I was stupefied because I was actually in the BB house and I was on TV. It was  a surreal feeling and above all, I was the first HOH of the season. It was pretty cool. XD

One night I had three dreams, the first one I was back in the trailer and there was some homophobe man sitting at the kitchen table antagonizing me and bossing me around and no one in my family would do anything about it, so I got a shotgun and killed him. The next one was interesting, I was at the trailer again and we were being attacked by really fat, evil pigeons. So, me and Kah ran to a truck and we started being attacked, so Kah used her powers to "purify" the truck, which meant making it spin in the air like a tornado to get rid of them. LMAO. So random. The last one I barely remember, I was at my current house and it had to do with my family sitting at the table and my parakeet. That's all I remember.

Brenda, Moriah and I also prank called people on Saturday. Good times for sure! XD

Today was the best day I had in a long time. I woke up early and played on Xbox Live with Gaby and we talked on there. It's been a while since we did that. It was a lot of fun! After that, I listened to music and found a great guy and just chilled out. It was great. I only had four hours of sleep, so I went back to bed after that for a few hours. The weather is amazing. It was supposed to snow, but it didn't.  Woke up, watched American Idol and Big Brother and that special about how you can live to be 150 years old. Yes, it was most definitely a good start to April. Besides having a headache.

New music on MySpace and YouTube videos have been keeping me happy. Yay broadband! I've been way more active on MySpace, too. It really is a lot of fun and I'm also introducing my friends to each other. I love doing that, and I love meeting new friends.



So, this is it, folks. I'm leaving IJ and LJ.. blogging is just becoming too much of a hassle. I just want to live and not have to worry about documenting it. If you want to stay in contact with me, check my userinfo page. Bye!














Gotcha. APRIL FOOLS!!

Let's see.. what's been going on in the life me me lately..

I left off on Saturday. Not a lot happened on Sunday. About the most exciting thing that happened was the lightning storm. It thundered and lightninged and rained like crazy. It was pretty cool. It's a nice change of pace from the usual snow and no snow. Most of the snow stayed on the ground, though. I love lightning storms. I'm just not too crazy about them when they're right on me. I prefer them in the distance. I think it's more fun looking straight ahead to watch lightning straight than having the look above. That tends to be dangerous.

Monday wasn't so great. My mom woke me up to tell me that my uncle passed out and was unresponsive. My parents rushed there right away. I was very worried but I went back to sleep after they left. My mom came back home and told me he was fine. Thank god. She told me that he said the respirator he was on made him feel weird, then he became unresponsive and the nurses tried to get him out of that state. He could hear them but couldn't respond, then he blacked out and randomly woke out of it later. Yeah, they sure are responsible caretakers. They're setting a lovely example of how to REALLY take care of people, unlike us who are "negligent" and "unfit." FUCK THEM. Since he's been there, he's fallen once and now this happened. While he was in our care, he's barely had any mishaps. Stupid fucks. Not to mention his "guardian" wouldn't answer any of her phones. My god, what a dumb bitch.

I borrowed Rock Band from my brother. It's a hell of a lot of fun. :D I'm pretty good at it and I'm only a beginner.  I didn't go to sleep again until around 11 am. I found that Richard has another MySpace floating around. One that's way more informative than his other one. So I was pretty thrilled about that. I slept until 6 pm. Lmao. Watched AI for the first time in a while. I hate when all my shows are on at the same time. We're low on VCRs so I can't tape my other shows. Even if I could, I'd be too lazy to ever watch them later. I'm such a retard like that. Luckily they have TV online. Bu really, same rules apply. Then I watched BB. I'm so glad Matty is off the block! I can't wait to see what the new twist is gonna be and what the alarm means. I just saw a commercial about it. They say something about Big Brother not letting the evicted houseguests leave and that that's just the beginning of it! Hope it's juicy!

Did I mention that the nice guy lawyer who interviewed me stabbed us in the back and is actually a gigantic douchebag? He says he believes my uncle is incompetent and should have an appointed guardian. Cocksucking bastard.

For the past few days, I've been serial adding people on MySpace again. I DO NOT do it to boost my friend count, I do it to make new friends. LUCKILY most of them added me back this time! Sweet. My luck is coming back to me. I thought it might have been my new, more optimistic profile and possible outlook and it may be the latter. As for the profile, I accidentally forgot to save that. But I since fixed it. Haha. I hope they actually talk to me. As for the ones who didn't add me, whatever to them. Ruuuuude.

I felt so tired come midnight. I just wanted to go to sleep. Even though I'd only been awake for six hours. I went to bed at about half past midnight.. fell asleep a little after 1.. and woke up at 4. Wow. Three hours. Woohoo. I hate that I can only sleep for 3-4 hours at night, yet during the day I can sleep for half of it. I tried going back to sleep but as always that was a bust. I just stayed awake and kept myself amused.

Lately I've been reminiscing about the good times I had not so long ago. Man, I remember how the end of August 2007 felt. I felt so free and happy. It was like the spell of high school broke and I realized finally that I am an amazing person and I am worthwhile. I became more confident and worked hard on bettering myself in more ways than one. I got to meet my cousin Donnie again. He was a lot of fun to be around. I hadn't seen him since I was 4 so I barely remembered him at all. Apparently I was crazy about him when I was younger. September was more of the same. With school going on without me, it forced me to think about that. I miss the good times I had in school. Especially senior year. I miss 8th hour study hall. I miss my friends, the times I had in school that were fun, of course the crushes. End of September Donnie came back. I was making a lot of new friends albeit online but still. I had my friends around me. I didn't feel lonely at all despite missing Richard like fucking crazy.

Everything felt new and exciting. I turned 19 and I had such a fantastic birthday. Many would consider a great 19th getting plastered with friends and getting laid but I had fun staying up until almost 6 AM; it still being dark out and the moon was directly above my head. It was gorgeous outside, there was a nice breeze. I jumped on the trampoline to celebrate my freedom. Because I could stay up that late and do that now. I didn't have to worry about going back to that oppressive school anymore or ever take orders from anybody again. I felt to alive. With fear of not having a birthday at all, waking up and knowing I'd have one was a lot more exciting. I just went to town with my mom and talked on the phone with friend while she got some gifts. Then later I celebrated my birthday with my family and even some extended family. Donnie left the next day and even that day was good. October remained a great month. I made more friends and even had a memorable Halloween.

End of October, beginning of November I came out of my graduate break early because my mom suggested to me this career path that she knew was right up my alley so I got right to work on that. December, kept working hard at it. I also continued to make friends on other venues. I forced myself to stay positive, even in the line of trouble. I was still able to breathe easy. It wasn't until December ended hat my ease went with it. And I refuse to let negative emotion take precedence of my life any longer.

I guess there are some golden moments in everyone's year. Mine for 2006 that I remember well was in December. I recall always wanting to go back to that month. It was flawless. But it seems like things are on an up hill climb for me. I just hope that's true and that I keep climbing.