Woven Cognition

Well, I had just about the best weekend ever. Yes, I got my shift key fixed. Yay! I wonder how long it'll last. I'm really getting ready to break this shitty keyboard. Anyway.

I spent some of Friday cleaning off my TV and preparing for it to be shipped out so my new TV could be shipped in. Not much time at all was allocated to doing this on Friday. I spent more time on Saturday morning doing it. Then, my mom washed it off and screen cleaned it. She said I should go along to bring it back just in case I have a variety of televisions to choose from as my replacement. We wouldn't be leaving until after six. My dad had to make up work because he was sick a day this week.

It was kinda depressing getting rid of it. I liked my [then current] TV, but the HD didn't work and the volume/channel buttons were fucked up. It had to go. Besides, I'm getting a whole new TV for Christ's sake. Who the hell would pass that up? I took some pictures for posterity. And evidence. In case they try to screw us over.. or if the TV fell out of the trunk on the way there. Lmao.

I unhooked everything and we moved it out and my mom vacuumed behind it. Tha thing is a monster. When my dad moved it around so my mom could get to the back of it, it began crushing my entertainment center. Apparently it's supposed to weigh only 150. If that's the case, I weigh more than it does and I doubt that.

It was gonna be a pain in the ass bringing it downstairs, but we managed. Then we had to load it into the trunk of the car, which was a lot easier. We were all gonna go, so we left my uncle at home. He was alright by himself, thankfully. Haha. So was my dog. Usually, I have to stay at home and babysit or someone else has to.

Now, I was given the impression and expectation that my replacement TV would either be the exact same kind as my old one, maybe look different, be a more updated model, or maybe I'd get to choose from any kind of Panasonic TV, as that was the brand I had. When we got to Circuit City (which is in a new location and now looks like a gigantic bookstore from the outside) and went in after they wheeled my TV away, the guy told us that they no longer make tube TVs, which is what I had, and I would have to choose from the flat screen LCDs.  I did not complain with that! I mean, I like big ol' TVs, but I think flatscreen LCDs are the shit! The only thing that worried me and what I originally thought he said/meant was that because they don't make the same kind I had or that they just don't have any, that I'd have to settle for a smaller TV. I mean, the ones I got to choose from looked smaller in screen size because they're not so bulky and have a much smaller cabinet.

They were all widescreen, too. I wasn't limited to the ones that costed exactly the same as my old one, but if I got a more expensive TV, we'd have to pay the difference. It was a tough choice. I was wary and kinda bummed about the sizes of the TVs at first, but I was told the screen size was the same, just 32" wide and like I said before, the cabinet (area around the TV screen) is smaller, so it gives off that illusion. They had some wicked TVs there. I WISH I could have gotten one of those giant 58" inchers. If only I had $1500 more. My parents and brother helped me pick one out and I picked the one with the biggest and sharper screen with a nice look. What really sealed the deal was that this TV is normally $800, going for only $550. FUCK YES!! The thing was, the one on display was the only one they had of that one. The guy called elsewhere and found a brand new one in Appleton and we'd have to pay only $50 difference, but they closed at 10 and we'd never make it.

I had to make a choice between getting the one on display right now, or wait until tomorrow and get a brand spankin' new one for only $50 more. I was really gonna say "I want one now, so give me the display." But the "You'll thank me for this later" side of me told me to wait. And I did. I was pissed because I really wanted the TV tonight and now when I went home, I wouldn't be able to do anything since my TV was gone.

My mom offered to let me borrow a different TV until tomorrow and my brother offered to let me play Xbox 360 in his room. We even went to McDonald's afterward. I love my family. That made things a lot better. It sucked having to wait and have no TV for the night, but I was getting a fucking amazing TV for a crazy good deal. That pretty much made it worth it. That still made me happy nonetheless and I was still excited for it. Made me less upset. Then, we went to McD's for me and my bro and BK for my mom and dad and we went home.

I ended up buying a Magnavox flat screen LCD TV.  :D

I spent much of the night being with my family. I don't really do that much and I really should do it more. It was really nice and a lot of fun. Then my brother and I played some Halo 3 on Live and I went to bed.

To make things better, my mom and bro told me they were gonna go and get the TV after dropping off my dad at work. So, I would pretty much have it here before I woke up. But, they were just leaving when I woke up. It's all good, though, because I needed to clean up my entertainment center and my room. By the time I finished, they were home.

They brought back more food. Lawlz. So, I quick ate and we began setting it up. It was a lot more stressful and complicated than I thought it'd be. But thankfully, my brother knows his stuff when it comes to cords and shit. The screen is so fucking amazing.TV shows look amazing, video games are great, DVDs too.. and Xbox 360 HD.. OH MY GOD!!!! ORGASMIC!!!

I invited my family to watch some things to display the greatness of my new TV and it was a lot of fun and my TV didn't fail to deliver.

I went with my mom to go pick up my dad from work. We just talked about whatever and we talked about what happens in the afterlife and living forever.. Then I asked her if she supported me and my sexuality and she told me she does and that she loves me no matter what and she respects that I'm gay and doesn't question it. She only wants the best for me and hopes my brother and dad take the news well. I'm so glad she understands now. I'm truly thankful to have a great family.

After getting my dad, I got a milkshake. YAY MILKSHAKES!!

When I got home, we had dinner and I showed my dad my TV. It's pretty much like a new family member now. I tested out more things with it. My brother let me borrow his game, TimeShift and he showed it to me on my TV. It's so real looking, you'd think you're there!

We played Halo 3 again later, too. It's so crisp and clear, and FEAR.. WOW. You can actually tell what the HUD says. The ONLY gripe I have about the TV is that whenever you change channels, there's a big gawdy HUD that blocks things out for a couple seconds, but I figured out a way to get past it for the most part. Another thing I was worried about was the TV being smaller (not in screen size) was that I'd have to duck to see it. It's actually just fine the way it is. No need for a stand. It's not a projection, either. So, I can go anywhere and still see the screen perfectly. :D It really accentuates my room well. It's a perfect fit. Way better than my old TV. Although, I will miss my old one. I got to keep the remote from my old one at least. XD

Some people might find it lame or materialistic that my family and I were brought together because of a fancy TV, but if it works, go for it. Besides, fuck them if they don't like it. It's better than being brought together by something boring and lame. =P This weekend was the best I'd had in forever and I've been the happiest I had been in a long time, too. We all really needed this. Thanks.

I was up the entire day Friday from when I woke up on Thursday, which was at around 7 or 8. I did end up falling asleep briefly at exactly the same time that Degrassi was on and I woke up when it was getting over. How convenient. I didn't do much that day besides enjoy having the house to myself for a few hours and watch Big Brother vids on YouTube. Megan called a few times during the day. She wanted me to talk to her and Isaac on the phone later.. But I fell asleep. But they called when I woke up. I finished the day with a shower and then went to bed.

Woke up on Saturday with the craziest hair ever. I really don't remember a whole  lot of excitement on that day. But if I do, I''ll put it down.

Then, on 4:20, I felt like playing some games I haven't played in a while on the 360. Sonic the Hedgehog, the new game, and MK: Armageddon. STH is definitely not the best Sonic game in any way whatsoever. But, I dunno, I think it's still worth playing. MKA pissed me off. I wanted to play with my kreated character on Live, but it wouldn't let me. I later found out that since I made the character while not being signed on to Xbox Live, I couldn't use him on there. Roar.

At 4:20 PM, me and my family sat outside and smoked. Lmao. Fun times.

I got tired around 9 pm. We all looked through the telescope at the moon, which was bright orange, Saturn, which you can see PERFECTLY, and a quasar. Then I fell asleep, forgetting to shut off my computer.

Today, Xbox Live was doing an upgrade and was gonna be down for 8 hours.. which I thought would be done at noon, but NOPE! It wasn't until 7 that I could go on.. but I hadn't been checking religiously til then. I also found a way to have my character on Live. I just made a new profile and reconstructed him. I thought each individual profile started off with nothing purchased (as in clothes, special moves, etc.) but instead, if you bought something on one profile, it's available on all. FUCK YES! So, I have to use a separate profile to use him, small price to pay.

Don't remember a lot from Thursday. Other than that I played with Gaby on Live and Michael was voted off AI. I was so mad about that! Oh, and I had trouble with brushes. Blah.Also, dealing with sleeping problems sucks.

My sleep schedule continued to plague me on Friday. I was about to go to sleep but then I had a head explosion and couldn't go back to sleep. Then, it started thundering and lightning outside. So, I just stayed awake for a long time. I finally went to bed around 2:30 after talking to Megan a couple times, MySpacin' and Eccoin' and breakfastin'.

I had a provocative dream involving one of my friends. It ended up being a wet dream in a weird way. It was bizarre, but erotic. I haven't had one of those in a really long time. Like, since I was 14. Lmao. I know you thought that was TMI. OH WELL!!! Then, I woke up late while Degrassi was on. Not much else of interest that day.

Last Saturday was warm and windy, this Saturday started off cold and snowy. Ugh. We have the most fucked up weather in Wisconsin. By the time I woke up, most of the snow had melted. Thank god! That night, I just decided to play Halo 3 on Xbox Live. I'm glad I did. It was a lot of fun. And really, the first time I actually avidly played it. Usually I play it sporadically and for like an hour at a time. I played from midnight to 4 am. I'm REALLY immersed in it, now. I even encountered this little asshole kid who talked shit to me. Lmao. He must've been younger than 12. He kept calling me a "disease" because of my gamertag. Ha. Whatever. I kicked his scrawny little ass and told him off afterwards. Bet he didn't see that coming. Looking at the video of the match, he just pussed around most of the game and went into hiding after I killed him. HAHA!! LOSER!!

I don't recall much of Sunday.. moving on.. I went to sleep EARLY on Sunday night/Monday morning at about 2 am. Then, I woke up suddenly at 6 am. Couldn't get back to slleep, and I was wide awake anyway, so I stayed up. Monday was strange. I felt fine for the first few hours, continued playing more of Halo. Which I had been doing every day since Saturday night. My mom wanted me to help with yard work, which I would have done, but I started feeling dizzy and had a headache. I think it's from lack of sleep and that I was up for a while by then. Then, my mom got a call from my dad saying the hood on the car flew back and broke the windshield when him and my bro were on their way to work. My dad accidentally didn't close it right when they were at the gas station. They're both alright. No injuries. The windshield needs to be replaced. It wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. The hood is all bent up, too.

I went to sleep after they came back home and slept for 5 hours. 3-8. Longer than I expected to. I felt bad, because it was such a nice day outside and I missed out on it. I also feel bad for not helping my mom outside, but I felt sick. I had an odd dream, in it I was at my house with my family and some guy came home with my brother. He was like some sort of lawyer. While he was here, three helicopters crashed in our yard. It wasn't a HUGE deal for some reason. To my family, it kinda was a mere disturbance, but no one else in the neighborhood seemed to notice. The copters were kinda small, too. There were people camped out in the backyard and we went out and talked to them and found out they were the reason the crashes happened and apparently there were seven building explosions in the news, they were also behind them. The man who came to our house was also involved. It ended there. It was so strange. I played it in my head afterwards and added more to it. It'd make a cool story or video game or movie..

It was so cool in my room when I woke up, the window was open and it was windy and the fan was blowing. I'm lame. I'm a sucker for nice weather, though. My dad randomly bought a new car. I watched After Dark on ShoToo and kept watching after it was over. There was this movie on after it called Urban Legends: Bloody Mary, which was kinda disturbing in some parts. It basically emulated popular urban legends. One part, this girl gets bitten by a spider and wakes up the next morning to see the bite on her cheek, she pops it, then spiders crawl out of the popped bite like crazy. Like millions of them. Then she bashes her head against the mirror and spiders pour out of her head. It was really disgusting. I fucking HATE spiders. At leas they're only myths. I think I played more Halo after that or something.. can't remember. Then, this movie called The Roost was on when I came back.. I saw the end of it. It was weird.

Slept for only a few hours because I was gonna meet Gaby on Live and my mom wanted me to wake her up at 8:30 so she could take my uncle to his doctor's appointment. Gaby and I had so much fun as usual. This time we actually playe with others in Big Team Slayer and Team Doubles. I normally only play Slayer on Rumble Pit. It was cool to branch out for once, and it's not so bad doing those other games I thought I'd suck at and wouldn't ike. I had Java Monster, an eclair torte and popcorn for breakfast. Lmao. I had been playing in ranked matches since Sunday or Monday and getting my skill level up mainly in Lone Wolves, so I continued with that on Tuesday.. I'm doing good in there. I usually get 2nd place or higher. I wanna get more wins, though.. not just 2nd place all the time.

I met some cool new people, no bratty kids. I sent three of them messages. One of them in particular, I wanted a response from and I had sent him the message while he was offline, and I noticed later that he was online, but did not respond to me, so I was kinda bummed about that. I was feeling sick again later. I think it was from lack of sleep once again. I think I get emotionally and mentally distraught when I'm sleep deprived. I slept until American Idol was 15 minutes over and felt a lot better. Watched AI, then BB9. I'm pissed I missed some of AI. I was pissed at myself again for missing out on a gorgeous day. It was warm and windy.. REALLY windy outside. I LOVE weather like that. The night was still stellar, so I went out and jumped on my trampoline that night. The moon was pretty much full and illuminated the sky. Perfect.

I avoided a potentially bad situation that night when I scratched my Rihanna CD really bad. I was freaking pissed. I tried rubbing it away, but wouldn't dissipate. The CD skipped, too. BAH!! So, I borrowed the DVD resurfacer and THANKFULLY it's good as new. It plays just fine now. Phew. Thank god for DVD doctors.. I was afraid it wouldn't work. I can still see the scratches, but it works nonetheless. I also noticed on Xbox Live's website, that I got a message back from one of the guys I talked to on Halo today. That was cool.

Woke up at 1 today (Wednesday) and went outside and enjoyed the amazing weather. Jumped on the trampoline for a while. It was still warm and windy. About 70 degrees today!I just chilled today.. didn't go on Live yet today. I also took a break from my daily workouts for a bit. I need to get back into that. I can't quit NOW.

Actually, I did go on Live for a minute today. I noticed I had 3 new messages. One of them was a friend request from the one guy I really wanted to hear back from and the other was a message from the third guy I talked to, plus the one from last night. I was happy about that! Surprised, too, because I didn't think he'd respond at all if he didn't respond right away. That rarely happens to me on MySpace. So, I was pretty tickled about that. XD

BB9 pissed me off. I'm so angry that Natalie got evicted! GRR!

Yeah, that's pretty much it.

Let's just say that these past few days have been absolutely amazing. It is a relief to finally be able to say that without sarcasm. All I have to say is thank you to whoever got me out of that depression mess.

Now, to elaborate; I'll start with Thursday night / Friday morning. I was watching Hostel on Showtime when I was considering going on Xbox Live to surprise my brother since I kinda have been avoiding it and have turned down all his requests for me to join him and his friends on there to play. I decided to return to Xbox Live and played Halo 3 with my brother and his friend, Chazz. I had a lot of fun! I'm getting back into the swing of it all and I don't give a shit what people say anymore. I won't let it ruin my fun. We played for a few hours. I had signal trouble at first, but it went away for the most part after a while.

The Heroic Map set is now free. I'm stoked. That was the original intention for buying those MPs a few months ago, but instead I bought Street Fighter II HF and Ecco the Dolphin instead. I didn't have enough points after that to buy it. Now it's free! Good things come to those who wait after all. I couldn't download it at the time, but I planned to later. After they signed off, I played FEAR, where I broke down more walls. I used to be shy on the mic and wouldn't talk to people I didn't know even if they talked to me first, I wouldn't even have the headset connected much of the time. Sometimes I'd have it connected, but muted. But this time I talked! It seems lame, but I think it's cool. It was great. I made some new friends. The first guy I talked to was British and had a thick accent. XD It was kinda hard to understand him sometimes, but it was all good.

Slept until 2, but woke up a few times before and thought it was like 7 at night, but it was only noon so I went back to bed. Haha. I wanted to watch the Degrassi Spring Break Movie. It was good.. but, it really wasn't a movie. It was just an hour long special. Movies, even made for TV movies are usually an hour and a half long without commercials. With commercials, 2 hours. Whatever. It was still good. Can't wait for new episodes next week.

I watched the videos of the games I played on Halo 3 the night before. Haha. Fun times. Took a bunch of screenshots, too.

I met this guy named Josh on MySpace on Tuesday the same way I met pretty much everyone else. But what wasn't the same was that he actually talks back to me unlike many other people! We messaged each other back and forth over the past few days. We talked about our lives, backgrounds, interests, being gay. XD All that. He added me on MSN and Yahoo last night/yesterday morning. We talked more about whatever. It's great getting to know him. He's such a great guy and he's only a year younger than me. One problem, he's taken. But you know, I'm more than happy to be friends with him.

Yesterday was such an incredible day. It was so fucking nice outside. The nicest day of the year so far. Warm, sunny and windy. The perfect trio. The night before, I asked my dad to fix my fan 'cause it's always so stuffy and warm in my room. He told me he was just gonna buy me a new one, which was really generous of him. My parents went up to my uncle's house while I was asleep, then came back and let me know they were going to town and I had to watch over the house. When they left I went outside and jumped on the tramp named Oline, which is just fine despite being outside for the duration of the long, cold winter. Surprising! I spent a lot of time outside and I felt so much better than I had all week... all month.. ALL YEAR! Being cooped up in my room during the winter sucks. What else am I to do, though? The fresh air and activity revitalized me.

When my parents came home, I ate and I talked to Josh and watched TV. Which is pretty much what I was doing before they came home, minus the eating. My new fan is slightly different than my old one, unfortunately. But it is new and it works great. It feels so nice to have a new, working fan. I hope it lasts a while. Especially knowing the way the summer is here..

Later, my parents, brother and I all played frisbee in the dark with this old '80s light up frisbee my mom won on eBay. It's not bad spending time with the family and I had fun. XD I was gonna go on my webcam but I got a headache. Bah. I didn't feel like it anymore. Talked to a million people for the rest of the night. On the phone, online and texting (online).

I just got added by this guy named Adrian and for once, soomeone who added me is cute!

Well, I'm gonna go to bed now since it's bright outside. Nyeh. Goodnight.. or morning, all! I'll keep you updated on my fabulous days to come!

Alright. Here we go again. TRYING TO REMEMBER EVERYTHING THAT GOES ON IN MY BORING LIFE!! For the last time on here!

Let's see.. I left off on Easter. Both of my video games are awesome. If I hadn't stated that already. Thank god, too. I was worried they wouldn't be good, knowing my luck..

I still have been kinda paranoid about my health. But I know there's nothing wrong with me, so I just need to convince myself that. I am getting better though, feeling better physically and mentally.

Unfortunately, my sleep schedule keeps getting later and later and because my bed isn't the most comfortable bed ever, I keep waking up with a bad headache and neck pain. Blah.

Well, I'm officially announcing that I am over Richard. I know, I know. It's a huge shock. I bet a lot of you don't even know who I'm talking about, though. Haha. Thanks to GJ going down.  For me, the only thing that can break a crush is another man. But, since I haven't seen Richard in nearly a year, I suppose that'll do it, too.

Now, I'm searching for new guys. I've been making, or attempting to make new friends on MySpace. Hopefully t all works out.

I've been having some vivid dreams again. In one of them, I was in the Big Brother house again. I dunno if I talked about the other one I had a while ago. Anyway, in this one I was in the HOH room and I was stupefied because I was actually in the BB house and I was on TV. It was  a surreal feeling and above all, I was the first HOH of the season. It was pretty cool. XD

One night I had three dreams, the first one I was back in the trailer and there was some homophobe man sitting at the kitchen table antagonizing me and bossing me around and no one in my family would do anything about it, so I got a shotgun and killed him. The next one was interesting, I was at the trailer again and we were being attacked by really fat, evil pigeons. So, me and Kah ran to a truck and we started being attacked, so Kah used her powers to "purify" the truck, which meant making it spin in the air like a tornado to get rid of them. LMAO. So random. The last one I barely remember, I was at my current house and it had to do with my family sitting at the table and my parakeet. That's all I remember.

Brenda, Moriah and I also prank called people on Saturday. Good times for sure! XD

Today was the best day I had in a long time. I woke up early and played on Xbox Live with Gaby and we talked on there. It's been a while since we did that. It was a lot of fun! After that, I listened to music and found a great guy and just chilled out. It was great. I only had four hours of sleep, so I went back to bed after that for a few hours. The weather is amazing. It was supposed to snow, but it didn't.  Woke up, watched American Idol and Big Brother and that special about how you can live to be 150 years old. Yes, it was most definitely a good start to April. Besides having a headache.

New music on MySpace and YouTube videos have been keeping me happy. Yay broadband! I've been way more active on MySpace, too. It really is a lot of fun and I'm also introducing my friends to each other. I love doing that, and I love meeting new friends.



So, this is it, folks. I'm leaving IJ and LJ.. blogging is just becoming too much of a hassle. I just want to live and not have to worry about documenting it. If you want to stay in contact with me, check my userinfo page. Bye!














Gotcha. APRIL FOOLS!!

Happy Easter, everyone!

I've been having a great Easter. My parents went all out this year. I really wasn't expecting much but they got me Mass Effect and Assassin's Creed for the 360 as well as three Halo 3 replicas and a basket of candy. They got my brother some movies and some candy as well. It's awesome. So far I've only played Mass Effect, which is way cool. I was afraid I wouldn't like it. The same goes for any new game I haven't played before.

That kept me pretty occupied all day. Before that, though, I was watching Zoey 101. Lmao. There was nothing else on. And dare I say it,  I actually like it. I suppose sometimes if I just sit and watch a show, the show turns out to be alright.

The weather was all over the place today. It was cloudy, then it snowed, then it was sunny, then it was snowy while it was cloudy and sunny. It was blowing all around. It was pretty cool. Looked like dandruff flying  in the wind. Then it cleared up totally and it's still clear but it's dark out now.

Then I had dinner with my family, including my uncle. Usually my brother and I run food up to my uncle after holiday dinners, that's not the case this year.

I hope you all had a great Easter as well!

Let's see.. what's been going on in the life me me lately..

I left off on Saturday. Not a lot happened on Sunday. About the most exciting thing that happened was the lightning storm. It thundered and lightninged and rained like crazy. It was pretty cool. It's a nice change of pace from the usual snow and no snow. Most of the snow stayed on the ground, though. I love lightning storms. I'm just not too crazy about them when they're right on me. I prefer them in the distance. I think it's more fun looking straight ahead to watch lightning straight than having the look above. That tends to be dangerous.

Monday wasn't so great. My mom woke me up to tell me that my uncle passed out and was unresponsive. My parents rushed there right away. I was very worried but I went back to sleep after they left. My mom came back home and told me he was fine. Thank god. She told me that he said the respirator he was on made him feel weird, then he became unresponsive and the nurses tried to get him out of that state. He could hear them but couldn't respond, then he blacked out and randomly woke out of it later. Yeah, they sure are responsible caretakers. They're setting a lovely example of how to REALLY take care of people, unlike us who are "negligent" and "unfit." FUCK THEM. Since he's been there, he's fallen once and now this happened. While he was in our care, he's barely had any mishaps. Stupid fucks. Not to mention his "guardian" wouldn't answer any of her phones. My god, what a dumb bitch.

I borrowed Rock Band from my brother. It's a hell of a lot of fun. :D I'm pretty good at it and I'm only a beginner.  I didn't go to sleep again until around 11 am. I found that Richard has another MySpace floating around. One that's way more informative than his other one. So I was pretty thrilled about that. I slept until 6 pm. Lmao. Watched AI for the first time in a while. I hate when all my shows are on at the same time. We're low on VCRs so I can't tape my other shows. Even if I could, I'd be too lazy to ever watch them later. I'm such a retard like that. Luckily they have TV online. Bu really, same rules apply. Then I watched BB. I'm so glad Matty is off the block! I can't wait to see what the new twist is gonna be and what the alarm means. I just saw a commercial about it. They say something about Big Brother not letting the evicted houseguests leave and that that's just the beginning of it! Hope it's juicy!

Did I mention that the nice guy lawyer who interviewed me stabbed us in the back and is actually a gigantic douchebag? He says he believes my uncle is incompetent and should have an appointed guardian. Cocksucking bastard.

For the past few days, I've been serial adding people on MySpace again. I DO NOT do it to boost my friend count, I do it to make new friends. LUCKILY most of them added me back this time! Sweet. My luck is coming back to me. I thought it might have been my new, more optimistic profile and possible outlook and it may be the latter. As for the profile, I accidentally forgot to save that. But I since fixed it. Haha. I hope they actually talk to me. As for the ones who didn't add me, whatever to them. Ruuuuude.

I felt so tired come midnight. I just wanted to go to sleep. Even though I'd only been awake for six hours. I went to bed at about half past midnight.. fell asleep a little after 1.. and woke up at 4. Wow. Three hours. Woohoo. I hate that I can only sleep for 3-4 hours at night, yet during the day I can sleep for half of it. I tried going back to sleep but as always that was a bust. I just stayed awake and kept myself amused.

Lately I've been reminiscing about the good times I had not so long ago. Man, I remember how the end of August 2007 felt. I felt so free and happy. It was like the spell of high school broke and I realized finally that I am an amazing person and I am worthwhile. I became more confident and worked hard on bettering myself in more ways than one. I got to meet my cousin Donnie again. He was a lot of fun to be around. I hadn't seen him since I was 4 so I barely remembered him at all. Apparently I was crazy about him when I was younger. September was more of the same. With school going on without me, it forced me to think about that. I miss the good times I had in school. Especially senior year. I miss 8th hour study hall. I miss my friends, the times I had in school that were fun, of course the crushes. End of September Donnie came back. I was making a lot of new friends albeit online but still. I had my friends around me. I didn't feel lonely at all despite missing Richard like fucking crazy.

Everything felt new and exciting. I turned 19 and I had such a fantastic birthday. Many would consider a great 19th getting plastered with friends and getting laid but I had fun staying up until almost 6 AM; it still being dark out and the moon was directly above my head. It was gorgeous outside, there was a nice breeze. I jumped on the trampoline to celebrate my freedom. Because I could stay up that late and do that now. I didn't have to worry about going back to that oppressive school anymore or ever take orders from anybody again. I felt to alive. With fear of not having a birthday at all, waking up and knowing I'd have one was a lot more exciting. I just went to town with my mom and talked on the phone with friend while she got some gifts. Then later I celebrated my birthday with my family and even some extended family. Donnie left the next day and even that day was good. October remained a great month. I made more friends and even had a memorable Halloween.

End of October, beginning of November I came out of my graduate break early because my mom suggested to me this career path that she knew was right up my alley so I got right to work on that. December, kept working hard at it. I also continued to make friends on other venues. I forced myself to stay positive, even in the line of trouble. I was still able to breathe easy. It wasn't until December ended hat my ease went with it. And I refuse to let negative emotion take precedence of my life any longer.

I guess there are some golden moments in everyone's year. Mine for 2006 that I remember well was in December. I recall always wanting to go back to that month. It was flawless. But it seems like things are on an up hill climb for me. I just hope that's true and that I keep climbing.

Happy Leap Day everyone. It seems like forever since the last Leap Day. Kinda weird to think that this day won't exist next year or until 2012. I have not been having a good week. I never talked about how my phone interview with the lawyer, did I? Well his name was Matt and he seemed nice. He wasn't an asshole or anything and he wasn't trying to find dirt to get on us or my uncle. It wasn't long, either. I was way more stressed the day before the actual interview. One the day I actually did it, I just woke up and a few minutes later he called and I got it done before my brother even came upstairs. I was gonna let him do it first, but I just nipped it in the butt. I like getting things over with as fast as possible, anyway. He just asked me if I think he's able to make his own decisions, what my opinion on the situation is, if I had anything to say, and finally if I wanted to assume power of attorney over him, which I said yes to. I took a nice nap after that.

I had a breakdown Thursday morning. I hadn't slept since I woke up on Wednesday and I felt nauseous. I've been stressing and freaking out about shit. I have a huge fear of death and lately it's all I ever think about. I hate it. I'm so afraid of if or when it'll strike me or my family and what happens after we die. It just freaked me out. This has been happening for years. But now it seems to be greatly inflated. I'm a hypochondriac and I'm always checking myself over for signs of illness or disease and I'm driving myself insane. I know I'm about to break. After the breakdown, I went to sleep. I felt delirious. I felt way better after waking up.

My brother and dad are both sick and have missed work most of this week. First it was my brother, then it was my dad. When I woke up on Thursday night, my mom and dad went to town to pick my brother up from work because he was sick. I had the house to myself and time to distract myself  from my depression and get myself back on track.  I'm gonna do my best to have a normal and happy and normal life and forget about death. It doesn't have to be on my mind.  I felt stronger, but I know it's temporary. I'm not over it. But maybe it's a sign of growth. I hope so.

Strommen's Facebook was "hacked" last night and his profile pic was of two guys groping each other and his "interested in" field said "Men" and it was hilarious. I told him that I called it. When he found out, he freaked out and was like "Oh my god, ignore all that! I'm so pissed at the drunk bastards who fucked up my profile! I left Facebook on while I took a midterm!" Yeah, okay. I think he just had a moment of feeling daring enough to share with the world his sexuality, then he chickened out. Haha.

I set my alarm to wake up today at 9:25, which I realize now that that was already pushing it late, so I could meet Gaby on Live, but I felt really horrible. I was so tired and dizzy and I tried so hard to keep myself awake but I ended up crashing. I slept forever. I think all this mental and emotional strain is calling for some recovery so I slept for what seemed like a long time. It wasn't as long as I thought, it was just that I was in a very deep sleep. My mom woke me at around 11 to tell me that she and my brother were going to the lawyer's office for the interview and that the lawyer told her I didn't have to go. I was so happy! I slept in a deep sleep until 3:30 and they still weren't back. My dad stayed home from work. They came back and then my mom and dad went to my uncle's house. Apparently the cats got into the house and are shitting and pissing everywhere. Shit. I can't remember in what time frame, but I kept waking up and falling back asleep and it took  me FOREVER to get up and stay awake. I could've just slept for days. I was exhausted.

The house is being inspected by a lawyer and the health dept. or some shit in the near future. FUCK THEM! It's cleaning time, dammit.

I totally downloaded Jumper. It's sooo good! It took me about a half a day to get it. My fucking computer kept going into standby, which may or may not have slowed it down. Piece of shit. Argh. But I have it nonetheless. I just wish I could watch it better. With four bars on the screen, I feel like I'm watching it through a jail cell. Hayden is teh sex.

I'm now on playing gratuitous amounts of Burnout Paradise. I went from a D license to a B license in a matter of hours. I'm halfway to my A license! Yay! I love that game, it's a lot of fun to play. Can be frustrating as hell, too. On my breakdown day, I watched House Calls for the first time, the Big Brother talk show. It's a fun show. I wish I would've started watching sooner.

One last thing: HOW SHITTY IS IT THAT SOUTH OF NOWHERE IS ENDING SOON!?

I dunno how I let time get away from me like this. But whatever. Sunday wasn't spectacular. I just watched Big Brother and the Academy Awards. I'm so glad Juno won some awards and that Heath Ledger was honored. I also watched Cold Case, which is a good show. It's pretty moving.

Big Brother After Dark is so much fun to watch. That night, they had a strip show that pretty much turned into a living room orgy. Then they all went skinny dipping. Lmao. I wish I could have that much fun. While it was on, a strange car kept going past my house; what I saw was them going past my house from the right slowly, like they were gonna turn into the driveway. I thought they were my parents but they kept going. Then, they slowed down by my neighbor's driveway. So I thought it was them.. then the U-turned, slowed down my driveway.. kept going.. U-turned AGAIN.. went down the lane next to my house.. came back up.. then went to my next door neighbor's house.. stayed there a while, then left with my neighbor behind him. Suspicious much? Gotta  watch out for those fucking feds.

Earlier, I saw an ad for Gears of War 2 coming out in November which inspired me to pick up my copy of GoW which I got for Christmas 2006 and hadn't played pretty much since I got it (which was the same for FEAR and those Burger King games... pretty much all the games.. heh.) I played a little bit of the part I was currently at, kept dying and quit. I tried again later and kept at it. At first, I was thinking I wouldn't be interested in this game, but it was way cool and very interesting and kept me coming back for more. My brother went on Live and co-oped with me on some of the game. It was a lot of fun. I didn't think you could play 2 player on a campaign over Live.

The next day, I played a lot more. I breezed through that game. I love it when games are more like a downhill climb than an uphill one. When I say that, I mean that it's not IMPOSSIBLY hard to get through, not necessarily kindergarten level. Extremely hard and/or boring games just turn me off. My brother wanted me to try Rock Band with him. I'm not really into those kinda games, so I didn't wanna do it but I did anyway. Truth is, it was actually pretty fun! I think I will definitely play again soon! Later, he helped me with the final boss on GoW. Amazing game fo' sho'.

After that was done, I popped in the demo disc he got from Xbox magazine and played the main demo from the disc. It's a game called "Turning Point: Fall of Liberty," and it's about an alternate history if Winston Churchill had died when he got hit by the taxi in 1931 instead of survived, how different things would be. It results in the Nazis attacking New York City. It's rather profound but the game seems like it could be really entertaining from the short playable demo. I know it'll stir up controversy. The game was actually released here today ("today" being the 26th, not the 27th) in NA before anywhere else. Damn, I'm gonna have to add that to my suddenly ever growing list of games to buy.

Time sure does fly when you're having fun. Except I'm not exactly having the time of my life, but I've experienced worse.

I spent some time with Donnie since my last entry. I was worried that my sleep schedule and lack of any positive emotion in my life right now would get in the way of that but it's not.

Thursday was pretty ordinary. Xbox Live, The OC, trying to see shit on the computer and failing miserably. I had a bit of a nervous breakdown at the end of the day but I'm fine now.

Friday was definitely a step up. When I woke up, I had the house completely to myself. Donnie was with some friends, my brother was at work, my mom and dad were in town trying to exchange Rock Band, since the bass pedal broke. I didn't throw a huge party while they were gone. Please. Ever since the college epidemic swept the class of '07, I've been left as the only 19 year old in a 5 mile radius. Congrats to me for being the oldest teen of my town. It's not even about that. Being home alone is fun and allows me to feel free.

All I did was play on Live and talked to friends. I'm a Live addict. I won't lie. Recently, probably as of Wednesday or Tuesday to be exact, I've been playing the normal Campaign of F.E.A.R. I remember I only played so far and not long after I got the game, I quit for a while.

Now, it's what I play most often on Live, which I need to stop. I've been ignoring all my other games and my friends are disappointed. I feel bad. =[ Not just for them, but I'm also missing out on the action and fun. Did I mention I beat Ecco? Hard ass game. I never beat it in one try. I always used passwords. Not this time. Really only because that feature was retconned from this version. I'm proud of myself nonetheless!

I was in a deathmatch with two other dweebs on FEAR and I was totally kicking their ass and they both left the game. Pussies. What the fuck? The one time I'm owning people and they punk out. Well, whatever. I stayed until the end and claimed my victory. Even if it was a solid 12 minutes. They both left by 8 minutes in. I wanted to claim my victory, dammit. And claim it I did.

Megan and Jacob kept calling me at a ridiculous hour. Apparently Sheldon hadn't come home from his date yet, so they figured he was staying at his house. We three-way called Strommen and they left a long message on his voice mail. It was hilarious.

Today, I had the house to myself for the most part, too. Donnie was out, parents went to town, my brother was asleep. I played games. Fun fun. My parents went to town for my uncle and to pick up season four of The OC. I officially have the entire series! Wo0t! When they got back, my brother and I ran to my uncle's to drop off the groceries, fill syringes and feed the cats, etc.

I had NO idea how fucking cold it was here! When I went outside when we were about to leave, it was like a white hurricane out there. It was worse at my uncle's house. The roads near there were pretty much drifted over completely. It was crazy, but it was cool. I love that kind of weather. Just as long as we stay safe. It was really clear out too, which I guess is why we were having that kind of weather to begin with.

There's a new cat up there, he's white and orange and is really big, he's a loud whiner, but really friendly. Haha. I want some of them.

We made it back and we had brother bonding on the ride. We talked about getting stoned, so when I got back, I toked up some. I'm gonna try it again. Try not to get paranoid. So I'm gonna take it slow. Lame, I know, but I can't help it. So I played some more FEAR. I'm getting really far in that game. Got a lot of achievements. Then, I finished off season three of The OC and started on season four. Oh, Marissa. *sigh*

My brother had this game, Dead Rising, that he says he didn't really care for and was going to sell it. Well, before I knew that, I played it and I actually liked it. Hard as a bitch, but I liked it. Initially, he wasn't going to give it to me. But my mom and I talked him into it. Maybe my letting him have the Conker game that I bought and didn't care for without making him pay for it helped him change his mind. Either way, I'm happy.

Donnie still isn't back yet. But there's probably nothing to worry about, the roads are pretty bad and the drifting and winds are pretty violent, so he's probably staying with his friend.

4 am. I should probably get to sleep or something. Bah.

I'm technically not back yet. My computer is still a piece of shit. I can barely read what I'm typing, so here we go. I'm only doing this because if I were to wait a couple decades down the road when I finally get this invalid fixed, I don't have to make a ten thousand page update and wrack my brain trying to remember what I did and when. I have OCD like that.

Ever since I got Live, my sleep schedule has changed from normal for other people ; in bed at around 10 - 12, to normal for me; in bed any time after 5 AM. That's not necessarily good. I hate waking up in the middle of the day, a few hours from sunset. Although with the way the weather's been going, I haven't seen the sun in weeks, anyway. Above that, I feel extremely lethargic. My body aches, my head hurts, I feel sick.

But hey, Live is pretty wicked. Which is what I've been doing to kill boredom that being on a working computer usually takes care of, but mostly watching season three of The OC. That covers most of what happened on Monday. I'm improving a lot on my Street Fighter skills, mosly for Live. Competing against other real live people, often ninjas and savants, is a far different story than fighting against the computer. People have the margin for improvement and growth, whereas the margin for a computer is previously set. The story stays the same about me improving for other games, too. I'm getting pretty far in Ecco. I just love classic games. Many times I'd rather play the classics than the new ones.

Ecco is a hard bitch ass game. No wonder I barely got anywhere when I first played it when I was like five. Not to mention traumatizing. Especially to those with arachnophobia. No spiders, but plenty of Octopi and sea spiders. *shudder*

On Live, you have a Rep, which is a representation of your reputation on there. It's calculated in five stars. Everytime you play a game and/or someone marks you as a preferred player, your rep goes up. It fills up a star a little bit at a time. I believe I started off with three stars when I began. Well, I'm close to a full five, so I checked my Rep and yesterday, it said I had 100% positive rating. Well, this time I checked it said I had a 66% preferred rating, and 34% avoided me. I was floored. I didn't get it. I did nothing wrong to anybody. I was nice, didn't cheat. Hell, I even sucked at it compared to those people. What the fuck? What I also didn't understand was why my rating was higher than before if people were setting me as 'avoid'. Another thing is that if you give people a bad rating/avoid them, you have to give a reason. And you have a details section in your rep breakdown, and it gives you a percentage of what people who chose to avoid you gave a reason as to why they did that. You can choose from six reasons, and all mine read 0%. So, I'm completely confused. I thought it was a glitch or a mistake. But it's still like that, and I turned it off and on.

My guess is that maybe someone can choose to avoid you without lowering your Rep. I don't know for sure. I gave one person a bad Rep for talking shit, being an asshole and a bad sport. It says in the help that it 'may or may not affect your rep' if you avoid someone. I can understand separating the two entities, though. I just don't remember having that option. Maybe the next time I play with some douche, I'll pay more attention when I send him a bad rep.

On Tuesday, my mom found a way to secure me a copy of season four of The OC, since it was highly doubtful I'd be able to run and get it before the week was done. She bought it online at Best Buy and it's ready and reserved for me for eight days. I'll be getting it on Saturday. So, I'll probably have it before I'm finished with season three. I'm on disc 4/7.

That's what I did most of the day on Tuesday, too. I'm hella lazy. Just been feeling like shit, you know? Drew called and we talked for like two hours. Unfortunately, I shouldn't do that. That's the reason I got my phone turned off. Using it too much outside of free hours. I only have like less than 220 minutes left. I also watched American Idol and One Tree Hill. OTH is still good, but it's dramatically different from all the seasons. I'm assuming it's different from season four, too. Since I never saw season four. It just seems really toned down and too different. It just jumped into a whole new realm without anyone being able to get used to it.

That night, Megan and I talked for three hours. Longest phone call we had in forever. I'm glad we're able to do that. It's fun being able to talk about stuff and how things were back when we met. All the people we were friends with and who were around back then. That a lot of our friends and the people who we saw consider that one of the best times of their life. And now it's all gone and we're just all depressed about it. I guess the only thing that sucks more about it being gone is that we can't have it back to the way it was. It'll never be the same again.

I had a disturbing dream today. Unfortunately, I can't remember all of it. I remember at one point, some of my brother's friends come over and when I tell them I'm not going to college, they tell me I have to, that I MUST. And I argued with them, telling them I absolutely will not.

Then, another part of the dream, I'm in some room with a bunch of people I've never met. One of them attacks me and tries to stab me with a knife and ends up slashing my left wrist. After that, I left and told them all to stay in the room. I put the knife in the bathroom and bled a little on the counter and I told my brother and his friends what happened. I wasn't all frantic about it or concerned with the people or the person who did it. It was kinda just nonchalant, as I had left someone who tried to kill me in an unlocked room with windows unattended. We all go back there to find that they all left and we go out looking for them. All I remember is that the sun was just below the horizon and there was a gorgeous twilight.

I think I've been having weird dreams a lot lately. I just can't recollect them. Ever since Donnie came here and I've been sleeping in my own uncomfortable bed. I haven't seen or visited with Donnie much since he came here. I've just been feeling so crappy that I've been lazing around my room all day. Usually he leaves before I wake up and when he comes back at night, I'm on the phone or playing games.

Today is no exception. Still boring. Haven't felt like doing anything but getting farther in season three. Yay! I love The OC. I like it a lot more than Degrassi, actually. Okay, well this entry is getting long. I've had a boring three days, and look at how much I can go on about it?

Yesterday had me worried and happy all the same.

I know I'm headed for a nervous breakdown even though a lot of times, I feel in control. It's those times when I feel like I'm losing it that are building up and will ultimately do me in in the end.

I'm a major hypochondriac; yesterday I saw a bump under my right wrist beneath my skin. I had no idea what it was. It felt hard, like a bone. But me suffering from intense anxiety, paranoia and being a hypochondriac, I thought it was cancer. I FLIPPED OUT. I thought I was fucking doomed.

I was way stressed yesterday afternoon. My parents and brother were in town. I was home by myself. My fucking dog got ahold of something and was gonna chew it up. So I spent an hour trying to get it away from the bastard. Stupid dog. Bah. He needs to be disciplined. Majorly. I called my mom, asking how to get it away from him, but nothing worked. At one point, she randomly stopped answering the phone and I freaked then, because I was worried something bad happened. It sucks to realize that it's come to that point when something as simple as someone not answering their phone, that I completely freak out.

Before they left, my mom and dad looked at my bump and said it was a vein, but I had my doubts. Well, I eventually got it back from the dog. Luckily it wasn't anything important. They came home and brought me back The OC season three! :D I was psyched. And they also bought me 1600 Microsoft points for Live!

I watched the first disc of season three so far. I wanna stave it off as long as possible until I get season four.. And just my luck, my mom just found an ad for Best Buy that all four seasons are available for $17.. MOTHERFUCKER! I wish I would've known that. Instead of spending $40 or $50 bucks on it. Well, guess I'll get season four sometime this week.. YAY! At least I'll get that for $17..

We ordered from Fox's.. and like the last two times, I coincidentally got a major headache when I ate.. I dunno what it is. Bah. Bad fucking luck. Didn't help that I was still obsessing over the fucking bump. I felt fucking nauseous, so I practically passed out. I woke up a few hours later and I had a sleeping headache, or it was from the one that was coming. Felt like I got shot in the head. Took some pills.

It went away quite fast. I had to decide how I would spend my MP.. I wanted to buy Ecco the Dolphin, Street Fighter II, and the new maps for Halo 3.. which would amount to 2000 points.. I wanted the games more than the maps, so that's what I bought. Good news is, is that I'm only 400 pts away from the new maps as well. :D Unfortunately SFII lags like a mofo on Live. Hopefully it won't always be like that..

FORTUNATELY!!! My mom took another look at the bump on my arm and told me it was a TENDON. I was SO FUCKING RELIEVED! I KNEW it felt like a bone. I asked her why it was so pronounced, she tells me it's because I'm a guy, but I told her there was no bump on my other arm and that it wasn't always like that and she suggested it was inflamed. Which made sense because my hand had been hurting after playing a lot of Tekken 2 the night before and it was only a little after that that I noticed the bump. Plus, I've been using my hands a lot.. typing.. gaming especially.. so it makes sense. My other hand hurts a little, too. I put an ice pack on it and it helped the pain go away for a while.

My cousin Donnie's coming today. Hopefully not 'til like midnight. I've been working on cleaning and helping out before he comes. Been working yesterday and today. I only got five hours of sleep. I'm exhausted. I'll take a nap after the Super Bowl, which I'm currently watching now. The halftime show is going to start after the next commercial. GO GIANTS! The commercials have been pretty rad. XD

Well, I'm gonna jet before it starts. Later!

This video makes me sick.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6alOnuN-wCY

What the fuck? I found it on a news article on a website. I can't stand the fact that people act this way. It makes me really wish I wasn't gay. I do have pride in my sexuality but honestly, with shit like that happening who doesn't wish they weren't gay? It's one of the major reasons I'm afraid to be out. I feel that I must hide my true self and make up lies all the time. I fucking hate it.

There are people commenting under the article. One person says it's "the norm" for that to happen, and it's "just another day on Xbox Live." Uhm.. yeah, right. The norm? FUCK THAT. THAT SHIT SHOULDN'T BE HAPPENING. One person said the guy with the name "asked for it," and that sexuality has no place in online gaming. I'm sorry, but if the dude feels the need to have his screen name reflect his sexuality, then that's his business and his right. The guy mentioned also says that it's "shallow to choose a screen name that represents only one aspect of yourself," I think this guy DOESN'T GET that it's an online gaming community, not a gamertag fashion show. People make gamertags based off of whatever the hell they want. One part of me slightly agrees that by having that name, he asked for it. But he's obviously very proud of who he is and doesn't want to hide it. And he definitely shouldn't feel the need to deny himself the name he wants just because of immature retards online. Also, I read that NOT ALL the insults said in the video are actually meant to be hurtful. Also, they come up with things like, "Well, it's to be expected when you play those games that normally teenagers are playing." or "Usually white men in their 20s are racist and homophobic." Uhm, EXCUSE ME? I'm a white man pretty much in my 20s and I'm not a bigot of any kind. And by the way, when they say shit like that, they're only introducing more stereotypes to the mix and promoting narrow mindedness, thus setting us even further back.

Now, I didn't put this up here to give a bad name to the community I'm now part of. Xbox Live is fantastic! Assholes are EVERYWHERE. Contrary to what many of the commentators on that site believe. By the way, I'm having fun on Live! I'm getting used to it. I'm hesitant to use the mic. Lame, I know. I'm just self conscious. And I'm not much of a talker with people I don't know. And during competitions, I'm either silent or yelling like in idiot either in happiness or anger. Lmao. I can't really carry on a random normal conversation and still concentrate on racing in Burnout Revenge like some of these people can. But I'm still a newbie. I'm still hoping I can improve... A LOT!

As per usual in Topherdom, something from the past catches my eye or I'm inadvertently led down a path which leads me to rediscover a gem from long ago. While I was finding Street Fighter II music on YouTube, I found some music from Tekken 3 from the same dude. MEMORIES!! I got all caught up and tried to find all my favorite music from all the Tekken games! Of course, other songs too. I know for sure that I spend more time gamewise in retrospect. I really need to play more Xbox Live! But damn, I don't have a whole lot of games that can utilize Live! Not many that a whole lot of other people play anymore anyway. Guess I'll have to go shopping when I have the chance!

Full article, by the way.

Think I'll send that guy a friend request! :P

So, CP2 wasn't exactly what I expected, but I don't give a damn anymore. And I know I sound like a greedy bitch, but I AM! :P At least I admit it. But I'm not really that greedy. If I had money, I'd buy everyone a million gifts. For real.

Anyhoo, aside from Married With Children season one and Burnout Paradise, which is WICKED AWESOME by the way; I got Halo 3 and XBOX LIVE!!! So, of course I fired that baby up right away. I couldn't set it up by myself 'cause I had to punch in 6 million numbers and find our network and blah blah blah. So, my brother helped me with that.

LUCKILY!!!! The name I had as my Gamertag was available on Xbox Live and I was able to keep it! I spent like two hours prior to my dad and brother coming home thinking of a name should I have gotten XBox Live. It's definitely the best I had come up with and I like it. I'm very satisfied. Want it? Just ask.

My brother wanted me to play with him and his friend Charles on Halo 3, but I wasn't very good, I wanted some practice first. I wanted to do other things, anyway. I mainly played around on Burnout Paradise and Revenge, as well as MKA. I kicked ass for my first matches on there, I was proud! My brother and his friend sent me friend invites, I accepted them. I downloaded a bunch of XBox Live Arcade demos, since I have no Microsoft Points, I can't buy the full games. Haha. I downloaded old school Sega games like Ecco the Dolphin, Street Fighter II' HF, Streets of Rage 2, Sonic 2, and Sonic 1. Then, I called it a night.

The next day, I jumped on right away and played Halo 3. I'm actually pretty good at it for a newbie! I played against a bunch of new people for a couple hours. I played Slayer and there's this one guy with a really hot voice on there. I sent him a message and we talked. He was really nice! He even sent me a friend request, so of course I accepted. He's the first friend I made on there besides my brother and his friend. So, that's cool.

Later, my brother got home from his work's Christmas party and me, him and his friend played a bunch of games on Halo 3 live. It was a hell of a lot of fun. Very addicting. My brother says I'm really good for a beginner, my parents say so too. LMAO. During Team Slayer, some people on the other team were named R0SIE 0D0NNEL. LMAO. So random! I hated that match, though. I sucked on that one majorly.

I took a Halo 3 break last night. Played a bunch of my other games. Burnout Revenge; made some new friends there. Same with F.E.A.R. That game is a lot of fun live! I didn't think many people would be playing that game live, but there's quite a few on there. That's way hard. I may be lagging, or others are cheating. Came across a few cheaters on a few games already. Bastards. I also lagged a lot on Halo 3. Really annoying.

My mom and brother got my dad Rock Band. It's pretty cool. I'm not really into those kinda games but they're fun to watch. XD So, my family is really into video games if you haven't noticed. Haha. My dad and bro love the game.

Today is just completely fucking shitty. Don't even wanna talk about it at all. So, good day everybody! OH! And the LG15 finale had quite a twist ending!

Yo, yo, yo.

How's it going, everyone? I'm glad so many of you  have found me! There's a lot more stuff I need to "pack up" from GJ. Hopefully I can do it before it buys the farm for good. There's just so many memories I have there, and they're not only in my posts on my journal, but my friends' journals as well.

Let's see.. I've recently gotten back into arcade emulation gaming. XD Since I got DSL now (seven months ago.. but there's still things I haven't done since I got it..), I can download the arcade games much more easily. So, I went to town on a few games. I downloaded Street Fighter II on Wednesday night (Thurs. morning, actually..) and then on Thursday, I downloaded Sonic 1 and 2.. no real differences there.. moreso in Sonic 1, though.

Anyway, Street Fighter II on the arcade is wicked. Apparently, when I download it, I get a bunch of "clones" with it.. which are like hacks of normal ROMs. They did some pretty sweet things with it.

I dunno why, but Thursday was a lot of fun for me. It felt different. Like I came out of the bad atmosphere I had been in for the past couple weeks and I was in a much happier and fun disposition. I suddenly became enthralled with a bunch of guys that I didn't really notice before. GODDD.. I need some male attention. I'm glad I'm gay. =P

It was bitterly cold outside. It was clear out, and very windy. So, the snow was blowing hard, whether or not it was precipitating or not. It was drifting hardcore. It was actually pretty awesome. Someone ended up in the ditch down the road. =X My mom and I shoveled out the driveway. It was literally a pain in the back. Almost had a heartattack because it was so exhausting. But, we got it done in a hurry. It was so cool out there 'cause it was drifting and the moon was out. I love the moon! My neighbor was also snowblowing across the street. Wish he would have done that to our driveway. x_x

Being proactive, I also cleaned out the cans after that. I suggested to my mom that since we did my brother and dad a favor by doing that, we deserve Burger King. XD So, we had them bring some food from there home. They forgot my fries and lettuce on my sandwich. Rawr. Bastards. My mom told me how dysfunctional that place and the employees seem everytime she's went there. XD

I continued with my arcade gaming. :P

I went back to some old traditions today.. like making graphics! Which is a good thing, since I plan to make a living out of it relatively soon. I also got back into As The World Turns. I love that show. I spent a lot of today with my GJ to IJ/LJ transition as well as salvaging some GJ memories. My computer's files are so cluttered. Especially the desktop. So, I cleaned that up and organized my files, now there's no more mess!

I watched Ghost Whisperer and Moonlight later. Those shows are actually really good. They've become my new favorites. Especially Ghost Whisperer. Too bad that when I put in the tape to start taping, I FORGOT TO HIT RECORD. Argh!

My brother called and told me I could play the demo of Burnout Paradise on his 360. Well, when I went to his room in the basement, I noticed some strange squeaking/screeching noise that sounds kinda like a swing set. I made my mom come and listen, but by then, of course it stopped. I thought I was going crazy. Then, when I go back down there with my mom, so she can help me set up the channel, it's going on and we listen to it. We had no idea what it was. But then we figured out it was possibly the gas pipe. Well, when I was playing, when the furnace went off, so did the noise. So that was it. We need to get that fixed ASAP.

Burnout Paradise is okay. But you can't ram people like you can in Revenge. Sigh. But it's wicked cool! =D

A little while ago, I conjured up the lovely background you see here. Do you like it? I just wish IJ had a "fixed background" feature. Rawr! I also made this icon today. Which reminds me; I got my cellphone turned back on tonight at 10:06 pm! After pestering my mom to reactivate it, since we got the money now. My dad doesn't and will never know that the bill costed $300+ dollars. =X Which is the reason why it got shut off and took so long for us to be able to pay for it to turn it back on. My mom made me agree to not go overboard with the minutes again. I can't wait 'til I get my site up and make my own money and have my own phone plan. Then I can buy texting!! Whee!